everything looks perfect from far away
you know, i enjoy how its day like fourtrillion of me being sick. you know that feeling where
light hurts, sound hurts, your head hurts, you wanna vomit, you feel like youll fall over if someone blows in your near vicinity....you look at urself in the mirror and you wonder where you are because you are disoriented (THATS THE WORD...i was looking for it yesterday, it got lost) you try to read your book, and the words just seem to fumble into eachother and you cant make two thoughts out. it takes so much effort to say "yeah" that you just grunt, like a man. you try carrying a conversation online but all you seem to say is two sentances at best while everyone is trying to have some intellectual and thoughtful conversation with you because usually you are amazing at them. your voice is so shot that you sound like youve been smoking 3 packs of ciggs a day for at least 30 years (ive been sounding like that since last weekend, actually i met so many ppl this weekend with my hoarse voice that im scared they think thats how i really speak, when in reality i think i have a nice voice). your friend texts you with love problems and all you can seem to respond is "try" and all you can comprehend is that shes to lasy to have a battle. you are so tired that youd rather be sleeping than online talking to your newly found infatuation. (btw, on a side note, i think i look damn amazing right now, i dont even know why...) youd rather drink water than soda, and you just want to curl up with your mommy or daddy and stay there till you can stand up again.
btw, i have found a new place in the song such great heights. garden state is truely onee of the BEST movies ever.
nadav, when are you coming back?
i think im going to go lay down and try to read something for school, evne though i assure you that i feel no better than yesterday and the day before. cept yesterday my mom drugged me...that was nice...she drugs me a lot. i think she finds it reassuring to have me knocked out
light hurts, sound hurts, your head hurts, you wanna vomit, you feel like youll fall over if someone blows in your near vicinity....you look at urself in the mirror and you wonder where you are because you are disoriented (THATS THE WORD...i was looking for it yesterday, it got lost) you try to read your book, and the words just seem to fumble into eachother and you cant make two thoughts out. it takes so much effort to say "yeah" that you just grunt, like a man. you try carrying a conversation online but all you seem to say is two sentances at best while everyone is trying to have some intellectual and thoughtful conversation with you because usually you are amazing at them. your voice is so shot that you sound like youve been smoking 3 packs of ciggs a day for at least 30 years (ive been sounding like that since last weekend, actually i met so many ppl this weekend with my hoarse voice that im scared they think thats how i really speak, when in reality i think i have a nice voice). your friend texts you with love problems and all you can seem to respond is "try" and all you can comprehend is that shes to lasy to have a battle. you are so tired that youd rather be sleeping than online talking to your newly found infatuation. (btw, on a side note, i think i look damn amazing right now, i dont even know why...) youd rather drink water than soda, and you just want to curl up with your mommy or daddy and stay there till you can stand up again.
btw, i have found a new place in the song such great heights. garden state is truely onee of the BEST movies ever.
nadav, when are you coming back?
i think im going to go lay down and try to read something for school, evne though i assure you that i feel no better than yesterday and the day before. cept yesterday my mom drugged me...that was nice...she drugs me a lot. i think she finds it reassuring to have me knocked out