Observing - Chapter 4 [Hetalia:Axis Power Fanfiction]
Author: AsakuraHannah
Original Link : here
Fandom: Hetalia :Axis Power
Genre: Drama Romance AU
Rating: T
Pairing: (mainly) Hong Kong x Iceland, DenNor
(Names from wikia) : Denmark (Mikkel), Norway (Lukas), Iceland (Emil), Hong Kong (Xiao)
Summary: Realizing Lukas got his boyfriend, Emil got depressed. He was failed to notice someone who's been watching him from nearby when his mind was too preoccupied with Lukas.
A/N: Hello, sorry for not updating sooner. I need a beta reader badly ;w; Anyone want to volunteer?
Disclaimer: I don't own Axis Power Hetalia, but this fanfiction is mine and mine only! xD This is just an Alternate Universe fanfiction.. Anything related to the real life, person's name, and world history has nothing to do with this fanfiction… There are no affiliations to actual countries, military, and such. There is absolutely no intent to slander the reputations or rights of those above.
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Chapter 4 : Step Brother
"Emil…?"
Emil didn't answer the phone as he lowered it, pressing the end of call button. His eyes were never leaving Lukas.
'I'm screwed'
"What is it?" Emil found himself asked his brother, he felt a lump on his throat as he swallowed his saliva. Lukas was staring at him right into him, making him uneasy under his gaze.
"Is that Xiao you were calling?" Lukas made himself comfortable on Emil's bed, eyes never leaving his brother's face. He watched as Emil shifted his gaze away from his eyes, a frowned formed on his eyebrows.
"Yes… why?"
"Nothing… you two seem very close. Are you two… you know, together?" Lukas received a shot of surprised look. Emil was staring at him as if he was crazy. He wondered why his brother always got wrong thoughts of him.
"He is my best friend! That's odd. Why are we talking about this, anyway?" Emil brought his knees up to his chest, hugging them as his lips starting to form a pout. And here I was; worried sick that he might have known… Emil felt his chest clenched painfully, he had promised to himself that he shouldn't think too much about it. Parts of himself really want Lukas to know about his feelings, and the other doesn't want him to know. Emil held his breath when Lukas sighed.
"I just want you to have at least someone you can share your problems with… Being together with…"
"Isn't that enough with just being… friends? What? You want me to start dating him?". Lukas blinked at the sarcasms in his tone.
"Why can't we talk without you being angry? Emil… You do know that… Mikkel is-"
"Your boyfriend. I know, you don't have to worry about it. I'm not going to steal him away from you. He's like a brother to me." Emil frowned went deeper when Lukas stood up from his bed and approaching him. Watching Lukas crouched down right in front of him made Emil's hands form into fists. Not too close…
"What about me? You never call me Onii-chan." Lukas expression was never change, but Emil could see a hint of sparkles inside his eyes. The Icelandic boy was now gaping at him like a fish.
"What is wrong with you, all of the sudden?! I'm not calling you that!" Not if I have feelings for you!
"Why? Because you are not really my brother? But I still see you as my brother." Lukas raised his hand to touch Emil's head, only to be slapped away. He retreat his hand in surprised by the sudden act coming from the younger guy. Emil's face was flustered as he stood up, fists shaking while he glared down at his so called brother.
"Get out." He managed to choke the words. He wants Lukas to go out from his room as soon as possible. He didn't know how long he could hold in his tears and anger. Lukas's eyes widened at the sudden command. He slowly stood upas he watched Emil's trembling figure.
"What is wrong with you?! This is not only your house!"
"Yes, this is not mine, not yours either! But I want you to get out of my room… please?" Emil added the last word as not to sound too harsh toward his elder.
"Not until we talk properly. Do you want me to leave this house? Fine, let me search for more decent job and I will leave, if that's what you want me to do. But that doesn't solve anything, Emil!" Lukas grabbed Emil's shoulder to make Emil keep their eyes contact.
"I will give Mikkel to you, Emil, if you really love him. But don't be like this, please? You are my brother; I don't want you like this." Emil slowly struggled as he tried to break free from Lukas. Emil gaspedsharply when Lukas suddenly pulled him into a hug.
"I don't love him!" Emil's hands were now pushing his brother away. He felt his anger rose when Lukas mentioned Mikkel. Give Mikkel to him?! That sounds so wrong in so many ways. He never thinks that way toward the guy.
"Let me go, Lukas! Please? I…" Emil gave a pant as he felt himself suffocated at the harsh treatment. His brother was stronger than he thought. Not only that, this physical contact was killing him.
"Aren't you going to say something?" Lukas slowly let him go; he blinked when Emil's face was so red now. Slowly touching his feverish cheek, Lukas was surprised when Emil suddenly pushed him away harshly. His brother ran passed him and outside the room, leaving him dumbfound.
"Emil!" Lukas followed him outside of the room. He stopped chasing when Emil grabbed his bag and ran outside the house. Lukas sighed harshly as he ran a hand through his hair when he heard the door being slammed shut.
"What have I done?" He punched the nearest wall in frustration, clenching his eyes tightly as he gritted his teeth. He doesn't know what to do. He has no idea what is happening to his little brother that he raise so well ever since they were little. He tried his best to make him happy, raise him like his own little brother. A single tear landed on the floor as Lukas cried silently.
Emil was gasping for breath as he ran as fast as he could. His tears were dried because of the winds blowing past him. He stopped by the nearest pole as he tried to catch his breath. He looked behind him to check if Lukas was following him or not. Emil was glad that he didn't see any sign of his brother chasing after him. He slowly walked when he felt his breath became much calmer. A single drop from above made him realize that rain started pouring down. He cursed as he recognize that he did not bring umbrella with him and started running to the place he knew very well.
Xiao's house wasn't that far from where he lives. But with the current rain, Emil felt it was pretty far from usual. He put his bag on top of his head to shield himself as best as he could. He was starting to get soaked now.
The time when he got to his front gate, he was drenched like a drowned rat. Pressing the bell for Xiao or any of his family members to come out, Emil slowly slung his wet bag over his shoulder. The door opened and Xiao came out with an umbrella. His questioning expression change when he noticed who was standing in front of the gate. The brunette quickly ran to the gate and opened it for his best friend.
"Emil, why didn't you bring an umbrella with you?!" Raising the umbrella above their head, he leaded the Icelandic inside their house.
"Something happened, and I ran out the house without realizing it was cloudy. It started pouring heavily when I was on my way
heading here." Emil breathed in relief when he walked inside the house, feeling much warmer. He started to sneeze once Xiao closed the door shut.
"Something happened?" Xiao repeated, waiting for Emil taking off his shoes as he put the umbrella back to its place.
"I will tell you later." Emil gave a sigh as he tried to wipe off the rain water from his head. Realizing this, Xiao quickly turned around.
"Wait here, I will bring a towel. You can change to something dry after that." He quickly ran toward his room before Emil said something as an approval. Xiao went back to him after a few minutes, much to Emil's surprised, and he was not alone. His Korean and Chinese brothers were also following him closely behind.
"Aiyaaa~ He's drenched, aru! Quickly make some hot tea, Yong Soo!" Yao ordered Yong Soo as he nodded excitedly. Emil slowly took the towel from Xiao's hand with questioning look.
"Well, he needs to know everything…" Xiao finished the sentences with a chuckle at Emil's expressions. Yao gave Emil the new
clothes while telling him to quickly change into dry clothes as soon as possible. The both lead the Icelandic guy toward Xiao's room at the very end of the house.
Making himself comfortable after drying himself and change into Xiao's clothes, Emil looked down in an embarrassment. He wasn't used to wearing anyone else's clothes, even when the time he was staying over, he brought his own clothes. The door opened, making Emil flinched from his own thought. Yong Soo appeared with a big grin and a tray of hot tea on his hands.
"Here, get warm up more, da-ze!" The Korean put the tray on the table next to Emil.
"Thanks…" Emil muttered to him with a small nod. Staring at Emil, Yong Soo titled his head for a moment. A bit bothered by the gaze, Emil frowned at him in reply. When they were staring at each for a moment in an awkward silent, a cough broke them from their own thought. Looking over the door, they saw Xiao with bags of snacks in his hands.
"Yong Soo, if you are done, can you leave? I would like to talk with Emil…" Xiao pointed to the door after he put the snacks beside the tea. Yong Soo gave him a pouted but he nodded and leave with the tray. Xiao gave him a glare before Yong Soo gulped at him and closed the door.
"What's with him?" Emil asked, reaching the cup and took a sip. It sure made him much warmer, he sighed after he took a sip without realizing. Xiao who was intently looking at him slowly curved up his lips. The Icelandic guy in front of him was enjoying Chinese tea as much as he himself enjoying it. Xiao shifted his gaze when Emil's eyes opened to look at him, asking for explanations. The brunette knew the reason, probably because of the sleeping pills that Emil had taken. He was glad that Yong Soo hadn't asked a single question to Emil just yet.
Receiving no answer, Emil shrugged and pick up one of the snack Xiao had brought for him.
"What's make you went here, all drenched?" Xiao finally asked while held his hand for a share of the snacks Emil had opened. Emil put the bag on his hand instead of giving him some of it after he took some for his own.
"It's almost dinner time. Can I stay over?" Emil asked while munching, making Xiao raised an eyebrow at him.
"…Well, I don't mind… have you told Lukas?" Receiving no answer, Xiao groaned mentally. So, it must be another brotherly fight or something?
"I… almost told him…" Receiving a stunned look from Xiao, Emil gave a nod at him with unreadable expressions.
"So, I think it's better for me to stay away from him before everything went awkward." Xiao stared at him unmoving when Emil finished talking. The Icelandic guy pulled his knees up to his chest and hugged them tightly. The brunette quickly came closer to him when he heard a sniffle sound coming from his best friends. Wrapping his arm around his shoulder, Xiao pressed his forehead against him.
"Emil…" he whispered his name, caressing Emil's back softly. Emil stiffened when he felt Xiao's caresses and slowly looked at him in the eyes. Golden orbs meet purple for a moment.
"Why can't you say it to him? Don't hurt yourself like this, Emil." Xiao muttered, still gaze over Emil's eyes.
"I can't!"
"But he is not your real brother…"
"But we are still blood related! And he doesn't think of me that way…" Emil said softly, shaking his head. Both of them fell silent at Emil's last sentence. Emil slowly put his forehead against Xiao's chest, tremble a little as he tried to hold himself from breaking down too much. Xiao could only stare at him unmoving, a part of him want Emil to just look at him and nobody else. He wants Emil to recognize his feeling toward the guy. He just couldn't find the right time to tell him exactly what he feels. Not when Emil like this…
At the front door of the room, Yong Soo looked down at his feet. Leaning against the door of his brother's room, His frowned went deeper as he listened to each of the conversation. He knew how the Icelandic guy feels. Yong Soo quickly walked away from the door as silent as he could.
Mikkel looked at Lukas who was staring down at Emil's photo album on his lap. He ran his big hand on Lukas's hair, caressing them.
"Remember the time when Emil was coming to my house?" Lukas slowly whispered to Mikkel softly. When he felt Mikkel nodded, Lukas slowly turned the page to reveal another childhood photos of himself with little Emil. His fingers tracing each photo unconsciously.
"That time my parents just got divorced, I was alone in the house and you came to play. My father suddenly came to my house with a little kid 3 years younger than me. He said that he needed some business to attend, so he left the child with me. Emil… he barely knew anything that time, he just went play with me while his father was gone… But…" Lukas bite his lower lip, he couldn't continue his sentences when Lukas felt his heart clenched painfully.
"Your dad leave and never come back to pick him up anymore. You were so happy that you discover your step brother, though.
And your mother raises both of you when she found out about it." Lukas gave a nod at the memories. Lukas closed the photo book silently.
"I don't know what happened to Emil's mother since dad didn't say a word about her when he came. I raise him as my own brother. As soon as I entered University Mom left to outside country, leaving this house for us to take care of. She keeps on sending money for our needs, while I work as a part-timer. Sometimes Emil was alone in the house, maybe he needs someone to be with during that time? I thought that Xiao guy was his closest to be with, but… I don't know that he fall for you… Or maybe not? I don't know. This is confusing!" Lukas raised his head to stare right into Mikkel's blue eyes. Mikkel gave him a reassuring smile as he continues caressing Lukas's back softly.
"Mikkel, you can broke up with me and be together with Emil." Lukas said firmly, his expression turned blank when he felt Mikkel's hand stop. His eyes widened at the command coming from his boyfriend.
"Are you crazy? I don't love him, Lukas!" Mikkel frowned as he retracted his hand away.
"But he love you." The Norwegian said hard-headedly. Mikkel shook his head.
"I can't, I don't love him! You can't force me to do that!" Mikkel rose to his feet immediately when Lukas started to object. Turning around to face the blonde, the Danish man glared at him.
"Beside, didn't you just say that he think of me as his brother? Don't force it, Luke!"
"He could be lying!" Mikkel raised his hands, stopping Lukas to continue any further.
"Lukas, the way you treat him is way over than being a brother. You probably didn't notice, you love him too much and want him to be happy. But giving me to Emil is strange! Think clearly!" Mikkel hissed when Lukas only stared at him blankly.
"I don't love him. If you want to test it out, just tell him that I broke off with you for good, then let see if he made a move on me. If that's work then… If he really did love me, Iwill reject him softly." Seeing Lukas looked down to his lap, Mikkel kneel down to be an eye level with him. Running his hands on Lukas's cheek, Mikkel gave a small sad smile.
"You are the one I love, Luke. Can't you understand that?" Seeing the smile on Denmark's face made Lukas tears fall down only to be brushed off with Mikkel's thumb. The bigger man pulled him into the hug, caressing his back softly to calm his lover down as he silently cries.
TBC