Blah Blah Blah #3- Being Emo
Please ignore the following emo diatribe:
I just hate this feeling, this feeling of being inadequate: as a friend, daughter, student and leader. I just feel that I have nothing to contribute. I'm just so bone-tired, I can't think anymore.
I feel like I no longer fit in. Everybody is looking forward to tonight, but I'm subconsciously dreading it, because in that group and among that grade, no one cares about me. I just don't feel like the rest, I'm in a whole different group of friends. I'm so quiet with them and that's not who I am. I should just throw caution to the wind and act as outgoing as possible.
I don't even know anymore why I was chosen. So many people could do a better job than I. Those freshman don't care about me and there's nothing I can do to make them like me. I'm just so not interesting.
I don't feel like I fit in with my friends anymore. Especially my best friend. I know she's just as busy as I and I know she probably had an off day too, but what if I'm not noticing that she's got bigger and better things than I. I just don't feel like I belong anymore. I feel stupid and immature all the time, and she's not doing anything intentionally--I don't have anything more to contribute, and there's so many more interesting people than I.
I'm a dried-up old well. I'd rather live in fantasy than here. I'd rather just stay on the Internet because here you can be an enigma and you can be whomever you want. God, way to be so typical of a emo teen.
I feel so useless, pathetic and stupid. I'm a waste and I am just ready to give up. Everyone else is so excited and I'm so nervous and ready to cry, because I am a loser. I'm always going to be a loser. I'm never going to be happy and I just want to go sleep.
Going to get ready for tonight. Nap and shower and finishing packing.
Peace out
I just hate this feeling, this feeling of being inadequate: as a friend, daughter, student and leader. I just feel that I have nothing to contribute. I'm just so bone-tired, I can't think anymore.
I feel like I no longer fit in. Everybody is looking forward to tonight, but I'm subconsciously dreading it, because in that group and among that grade, no one cares about me. I just don't feel like the rest, I'm in a whole different group of friends. I'm so quiet with them and that's not who I am. I should just throw caution to the wind and act as outgoing as possible.
I don't even know anymore why I was chosen. So many people could do a better job than I. Those freshman don't care about me and there's nothing I can do to make them like me. I'm just so not interesting.
I don't feel like I fit in with my friends anymore. Especially my best friend. I know she's just as busy as I and I know she probably had an off day too, but what if I'm not noticing that she's got bigger and better things than I. I just don't feel like I belong anymore. I feel stupid and immature all the time, and she's not doing anything intentionally--I don't have anything more to contribute, and there's so many more interesting people than I.
I'm a dried-up old well. I'd rather live in fantasy than here. I'd rather just stay on the Internet because here you can be an enigma and you can be whomever you want. God, way to be so typical of a emo teen.
I feel so useless, pathetic and stupid. I'm a waste and I am just ready to give up. Everyone else is so excited and I'm so nervous and ready to cry, because I am a loser. I'm always going to be a loser. I'm never going to be happy and I just want to go sleep.
Going to get ready for tonight. Nap and shower and finishing packing.
Peace out