a penny for your thoughts...
ive been thinking alot about everything alot some lady was stabbed to death by her husband on valentines day adding another statistic to my whole guys are assholes quote and i only have one sometimes two people who i can actually say are friends one constantly confuses me cause hes a guy and my brain keeps tellin me that i like him a whole lot but my hearts telling me stay away because it remember what guys are i really miss the brittany that i used to know she was so cool now im forced to smile in the face of a wicked grimmy bitch... it hurts alot i wish she could be a friend but shes way to spoiled and stuck up to keep a friendship and to tell you the truth it boggles everytime i try to figure out she keeps the relationship shes in now but thats her and her life i have to move on and meet new people build friendships that arent just petty drama and to try my hardest to talk about my problems rather then just give everyone the cold shoulder i feel like im never going to make new friends thought but maybe im just not looking hard enough maybe ill be alright with the one in a half i have now im kinda disappointed in myself for begining the cutting again i hope it doesnt go back to being a habit my arm healed up good and i think it was just a slip damn do i feel like a crack whore or something actually i just feel like a retard addicted to self mutalation? not possible im just and idiot that tells myself to do dumb shit so that i can get through life when if i just let the problem go for a few days it usually disappears i never want to think of that when im angry im so stuburn what to do about being sexually harrased at school by my teacher i cant tell on him im too scared i wonder if i can get out of his class some how maybe if i start acting like a complete bitch hell stop making advances at me and i can actually feel comfortable going to school i dunno though maybe ill just let it go untill he tries to do something off the wall then ill just tell somebody its not that bad right now or atleast i think its not...