last resort
it has been almost a year without cutting and me being at home and of corse i had to go and fuck it up...im not sure what the hell i did this time but its still bleeding from last night if its still bleeding tommrow morning i guess ill have to tell my mother its bleeding or not i dunno maybe itll just bleed untill theres no more me no one would care really they wouldnt brittany and her stupid ass boyfriend would probally have sex then hed beat the shit out of her and maybe vickie would come and her and talia could wear the exact same out fit and do everything together all the time like she always tries to do id be soon forgotten anyways i always am vickie was like the only true one hanging on but i think even her has weeknesses shes not who she used to be i was looking forwared to actually having a friend again too but now im just looking to the county to allow my mother to homeschool me but i have to see what happends to my arm it was stupid to begin that shit again cuz its getting hot and people will see but fuck it fuck people people make me hurt so bad im starting to think that maybe if my life were to end soon that wouldnt be sucha bad thing everythings a mess for me and no one can ever treat me like a real person i guess i am just some crazy bitch who deserves the hand im dealt oh well ill be sure to find out what the hell to do next with my life if the blood ever stops im kinda hoping it wont life with out mickie is like how everyone already sees it hmmm i guess ill have to see