just another musician to write another song...
i've fallen deeply into my pre-show tortured artist alter-ego. less than 48 hours and i will be standing behind a microphone at a venue i've never seen before. i thought i was nervous, but it hasn't really hit me yet. i'm more nervous about all the plans we made working out tomorrow. i hope there are actually people there to see us, i hope justin and owen somehow make it there. i hope undergirl shows up early and likes our music. i've been feeling musically inspired, but i've been thinking about it too hard. i can't write if i consciously think about writing a song. i can't just sit down with a blank piece of paper and be like, "alright, it's time to write a song." i never remember the process of actually writing a song, except "the umass song" when i listened to belly's "untogether" on repeat on my discman while sitting on the floor of my room when i was supposed to be doing homework.
most of the time an idea just comes to me and i write it down in seconds, and before i know it there's a song. usually i have a melody and rhythm already in my head. i have so much i want to write about, but i can't filter anything specific out of my already overcrowded brain. i wrote a song today, a lot angstier than most of my recent music. it's about this very topic of not being able to write because there's too much going on in my head. i think it was inspired partially by listening to "last song" and partially from being forced to watch everyone around me pair off into happy couples. i've become too cynical, the whole thing fuels the intense angst i've been feeling recently. i just need to preserve my vocal chords for a few more hours, and then i can only hope that i don't get it all out during band practice tomorrow. i think there's enough anger in me that i could keep it in me until the next show we play, whenever that may be.
most of the time an idea just comes to me and i write it down in seconds, and before i know it there's a song. usually i have a melody and rhythm already in my head. i have so much i want to write about, but i can't filter anything specific out of my already overcrowded brain. i wrote a song today, a lot angstier than most of my recent music. it's about this very topic of not being able to write because there's too much going on in my head. i think it was inspired partially by listening to "last song" and partially from being forced to watch everyone around me pair off into happy couples. i've become too cynical, the whole thing fuels the intense angst i've been feeling recently. i just need to preserve my vocal chords for a few more hours, and then i can only hope that i don't get it all out during band practice tomorrow. i think there's enough anger in me that i could keep it in me until the next show we play, whenever that may be.