nervousness never fades...

[guitariot]

jon and i were talking about this song earlier. carrie brownstien used to have so much more angst back in her excuse 17 days. i just wrote a journal entry, but these are the lyrics, mostly because i think jon wants to read them, and it makes me feel like carrie brownstein knows how i feel...

last night i thought i'd just go ahead and pull my hair out.
i hate to wait for failure
i'd rather do it on my own than wait.
the nervousness never fades.

this is not an invitation for you to crawl inside of me.
this is not your love song to analyze, more like a good sleep remedy.

this is a song i wanted to write about this girl i know,
but i know you'd all just twist it into what you wanted me to say and mean
you don't know a thing

all these things i want to tear right out of me
like how it matters how i care what people think
it's you, it's you, it's you, it's you!
we've got to get out of here before it kills us.
i'm gonna put my heart right on the page
and let it bleed right through
there's nothing else to do
the words, the words, they're eaten all the words
the words, the words!
they want to eat this up

racers take your places
ready on your mark
gun goes, they're off
racers leave the start
i watch you as you run away
with part of my heart
i'm stuck here at the start
you finished with my heart.