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Sometimes I feel like my life is out of control. I can't sleep, my eating habits are terrible, and my brain, once a prize I was proud of, is now about as efficient as...well...something terribly inefficient. I have tried to improve my life but it seems like all I ever do is spin my wheels in place. Doesn't seem to matter how determined I am....I just can't get anywhere. I don't know what I want to do with my life, my new job involves SELLING something I suck ass at....and if I hear one more person tell me that Jesus is what will make my life better than I'm going to start throwing things. Yeah I'm depressed. Misty will probably read this and think that she should break up with me, because for some reason she thinks she's the cause of all the problems in my life. She's not of course, I'm twenty four years old and if my life gets out of control, it's a hundred percent my fault. Sometimes I wonder if I have sleep apnea or something...my sleeping is just not good the vast majority of the time. I only sleep really good when I'm sleeping with Misty. Sometimes I wonder if I should go back on medication. It's hard to cope with everything, all the ups and downs. I do have a lot of people who care about me, but sometimes life's just overwhelming. I am scarcely the only person with problems in the world, but boy does it suck sometimes.