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[grim_evil22]

well here i go.... im pretty much watching my family fall apart. its not to fun. what should i do? my mum is telling me about how jenna wants to run away and i want to kill myself and she just wants to leave. kim thinks she can help me but she has no clue. it doesnt help that she takes pills when she doesnt need to. now she thinks shes a bad

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[pyro_babe]

No one is ever too far lost. If I can get better, you can too. I've been through a lot of crap in my life. I've watched my family crumble, I've watched my best friend die. I lost the will to live two different times in my life...I'm not strong. The only way I made it through was with the support of my friends...really only one that could talk sense into me...and because of God. I'm still not fully recovered, but I'm getting there.

I don't know what to say because I've never been good with words. But I can offer pray and I can offer a listening ear from someone removed from the situations: so I can be unbiased. One thing that I do know is that you CANNOT keep cutting. I know you're not stupid and you know it's not healthy. I think that every cutter knows it. But really...that's not enough most of the time. You have to WANT to stop. And you have to take the step in telling an adult and getting help. It's not easy. But it's something you need to do. If you can, throw away all your blades. If you don't have something to temp yourself, it's easier...I admit that I still have two blades that my parents don't know about...I can't make myself throw them away...yet. But they are somewhere inconvenient to go get if I feel the urge. I haven't cut for 2 months as of yesterday. I still get urges but...I do other stuff instead. I tell my parents. They help a lot. They sit with me, or when I want to be alone, they just make sure that all blades are out of reach or knowledge... I didn't wanna tell them but when I did, it helped. I really strongly urge that you tell an adult you trust, be it your parents or someone else...Also, neither cutting nor overdosing are fun ways to attempt suicide. And it's not gonna do anything to show your friend how mad you are if you die too. I think you need to sit down and talk to her about how you feel....if at all possible. She may not listen and she may get mad...but if you try, and she doesn't like it...it isn't your fault what she choses. You might even want to get an adult on her side involved if she's that serious...

Anyways I guess that was my two cents...it might not have been needed...and if you really think that it was stupid of me to have said, I'm sorry...I just... really relate to you I guess...And I wanna do whatever I can to help. I mean that.

[grim_evil22]

ok thanx for the advice but theres a few problems.... 1. i already told an adult. i told my mum and the shool and my sister told her firends mum. i also have a therapist but ive only gone once and im going again this up and coming wednesday.2.im not sure i want to stop yet. im afriad of being happy and im not sure i can stop yet im to scared to.3. ive talked to my friends but all of them have given up on me cuz they realize that they cant help and my mum just tells me to go ahead and do it cuz she knows that if she tells me not to then i ll just do it twice as bad. the only firend who hasnt given up on me is kimm but she has problems herself and i swear she needs more help then me and me and her both say the only reason we are living is for eachother. anyweay im gonna go
JESS