i did not get to the Friends Meeting yesterday because I was so tired that I couldnt get both of my eyes to focus at the same time! noah has been up a lot during the night, lately, and not getting home from work til 11ish has been a bit exhausting. i took a nice long nap yesterday afternoon, and matthew closed the curtains and shut the doors to ( Read more... )

it is the way the sunlight is burning the leaves, making all the trees look like they are on FIRE. and the way the fog settles behind the house, & you cant see the pond past the fence where the sheep used to run. & its in the checking of the furnace, the adding water butnottoomuch. & its the perfect breakfast: toasted grace bakery bread with ( Read more... )

the days all mush together, there is really no defined day/night today/tomorrow. it makes me remember that i am to be Present in each moment, whether its at three in the morning feeding wee noah, or five in the afternoon, helping someone find a book ( Read more... )

my mother has to go back and have another ct scan in five weeks, and continuous bloodwork (which is a pain for her because all of her veins have collapsed; they had to put a main line in (her neck) in the hospital and thats where everything will come from from now on). the pathology report came back okay but guarded... but for today there is ( Read more... )

the mixture of going back to work, my mother being sick, and noah having a growth spurt & wanting to eat three times a night has left me a little exhausted! i am just now coming out of the fog, just now starting to feel like this is all going to work okay. matthew has given me the best gifts lately, like extra sleep in the morning AND evening on ( Read more... )

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i really love september. i used to ignore it, i used to never really mark time with the change of the seasons. my life really revolved around however i wanted to manipulate and manage my twentyfour hours each day. but now, i am so much more aware of time and of life cycles and of the seasons, it amazes me how many years i just didnt even seem to ( Read more... )

i feel like a mess, but not in a sorrowful, full of dread way. just in a... newmommagoingbacktoworkturningdownpromotionswantinglesshoursmotherissickbutnodefinitiveanswersyetjustwaitingwaitingandteststheTESTSthisisallatestthisisallmybreaththisisbreathingthisislivingthisislovingthisisLOVINGthisislivingthisislife ( Read more... )