***WHAT GOES AROUND, COMES AROUND***
Well, Nikki and I are done for good. I know, I know, I say that ALL the time. Probably not for good, but at least for awhile. I just don't know where the hell her head is at right now since it changes every five minutes. She's still playing this "I have a gf" game, which I still think is incredibly stupid. So yesterday I put a message to an ex in my away message before I left for work, just to piss her off. She didn't read it til last night but when she did she went nuts. If you have a gf you don't care what your ex does. Am I right? So then she started talking all this shit about how she was going to sleep with her gf. *rolls eyes* I wish she would sleep with someone else so I can wrap this shit up for good, because that would be the be all end all.
The part about all this that really pisses me off is that before I didn't treat her as good as she should've been treated, but after she disappeared I treated her like gold. I made changes to my habits and myself to benefit our relationship and became a very good girlfriend and she hated it. I just don't get it. I don't treat her good and she gets pissed but then I treat her really good and she hates it. I can't win. It's like she loves complications. Yesterday she called me while I was at work and was like "We have been best friends for 5 years. You can't just take all that away from me!!" When she said that her voice cracked a little as if she were about to cry. So I tried to plead my case in the short amount of time I had since I had to sneak away at work to answer her call, then after trying to talk to her for a few minutes she goes "Well, I'm at my gf's house now, I'll call you later." WTF??? WHO DOES THAT??????? I mean, really. UGH!
I woke up to a text from her cussing me out and saying she's done. *rolls eyes* If I ignore her long enough she'll text me later. Normally after a break-up I could find someone else in a heartbeat and get over my ex in a flash, but this time I just can't bring myself to do it. My heart just isn't in it. It sucks because I finally fell in love, true love, for the first time and everything is so fucked up right now. She puts so much blame on me and I'm NOT a bad person. Yes, I have done some fucked up things, but who hasn't??? She acts just like her mom. She wants to blame everyone but herself. It's never her fault. I'm tired of pleading and begging. I think it's time I disappear for awhile so she can realize what she's lost. Game on bitch!
The part about all this that really pisses me off is that before I didn't treat her as good as she should've been treated, but after she disappeared I treated her like gold. I made changes to my habits and myself to benefit our relationship and became a very good girlfriend and she hated it. I just don't get it. I don't treat her good and she gets pissed but then I treat her really good and she hates it. I can't win. It's like she loves complications. Yesterday she called me while I was at work and was like "We have been best friends for 5 years. You can't just take all that away from me!!" When she said that her voice cracked a little as if she were about to cry. So I tried to plead my case in the short amount of time I had since I had to sneak away at work to answer her call, then after trying to talk to her for a few minutes she goes "Well, I'm at my gf's house now, I'll call you later." WTF??? WHO DOES THAT??????? I mean, really. UGH!
I woke up to a text from her cussing me out and saying she's done. *rolls eyes* If I ignore her long enough she'll text me later. Normally after a break-up I could find someone else in a heartbeat and get over my ex in a flash, but this time I just can't bring myself to do it. My heart just isn't in it. It sucks because I finally fell in love, true love, for the first time and everything is so fucked up right now. She puts so much blame on me and I'm NOT a bad person. Yes, I have done some fucked up things, but who hasn't??? She acts just like her mom. She wants to blame everyone but herself. It's never her fault. I'm tired of pleading and begging. I think it's time I disappear for awhile so she can realize what she's lost. Game on bitch!