hm...live journal says i have not updated in 58 weeks...
haha.
very true.
life is a trip!
im glad i have my live journal back.
<3<3<3

im going throuh some stuggles right now. and they only way i seem to find answers is by reading the word. Its funny how some people seem so into it at first then they fade away arnt upfront. i cant really deal with it that much anymore. im a different person now. i think its time for me to just be alone? i dont know.

ahhhh
i hate thinking about old thinggggggg
like things that happened in the past.
i miss them sometimes
but on the otherhand its sooo 
good that ive moved on

im having personal frustrations. 
i can control them in everyway but i dont. 
the fire in my heart is most definately out.

concerned for future
perishable memories
craving devine love

no sun. 
no make up
im beautiful. 
stay postivive.
STUDY
be a role model. 
everyone looks up to you in one way or another

 dododododo lala laallalala.

Im happy :) 
its gettin dark really early. 
i need a fireplace. 
moving out soon?! yes please.
ill have a house warming party :)
k gotta study. 
peaceeee <3

oh mmmm goodnessss
just got back from church. 
twas beautiful :)

Pastor Steve talked about growth within ourselves and in the church. He's super funny :)

i wrote some random things in church, might as well just post them.

I resisted
I pushed you away
I gave you half of who i was
I only half believed
and now i have come to realize 
how beautiful you are
I ( Read more... )

never walking alone down this path of life
always someone walking right behind you
breathing on your neck
slender hairs arise and scream
stomach in knots
twisting and turning
suffering 
will he forgive?
special accommodations were made for your mistake
jealousy and inturreptions  corrode away at your discretion.
are we all ordinary
traped and alone in her ( Read more... )

i cant even express how much i love life right now. you know when you have those moments when you realize your on the right track and you have so much going for you and you are smarter then you think? im totally in that state of mind right now. im excited to live haha. i pretty much have my life planned out for the next like four or five years. 2 ( Read more... )