as I have nothing else to say, I write what I hate.
As I'm sure most of you know now, then little Denmark have become headline news. Like most others here, I don't want to write about it. I wanted to forget it, and wish it would go away.
But earlier today, I sat with myself, and decided I wanted to get case out, and tell the story as is it, from someone who witnessed it from front row, from day 1.
And because it was so hard for me to write this, I might as well show it to someone, and that will be here. Take it or leave it...
Firstly, I want to say, that I'm sorry, for those whose throats I jumped at, when discussing it. I can't explain why, and I can't say I regret it, because I believe in what I did. I was however surprised at myself at realising my aggresion here about it.
I think it is related to, that this is actually so close to me. I prefer keeping a distance between me in real life and on here. And I could do that, even with posting in political topics etc. But I can't with this, because this is my real-life world. I'm living in the middle of the inferno, that you describe on such a distance. It is a clash between my real world and my internet world, of such dimensions, that I simply can't cope with it, and that must lead to my feelings of aggresion. You guys can keep it at a distance, like all other news, but it is so close to me. Everyone here are walking shivering because of this. This is our life.
I was with the case all the way from the start, in September, back 5 months ago, when the drawings were first published. And it is frustrating to see that suddenly this rises and is world news after such long time. Denmark have always been a little fairytale country. Everso few murders and violence, no big court, trials and fights. A country were no one starved and was homeless, a country that donated most to Africa (per citizen), a country were all could talk with each other so settle conflicts and quarrels. It's like my country has lost its innocence, and now is included in the big black world, like all other countries.
You guys have to know, I used to work for the newspaper that originally brought the drawings. I still have the christmas present they gave me years ago. I even have sometimes been in the main building of the paper, that now have been evacuated several times due to bomb threats.
Were I live, subscribe to the paper, against my will, as I personally object to most that the paper writes. So, don't get me wrong, I loathe the paper.
So, I read about the drawings, the day they came out, and you guys know what I thought? I thought, that this is going to turn ugly, I knew it, and I hated the paper for doing it. But no one asked me.
OK, the factual story. I will describe it, as I saw it first hand, and many stories circulating about it are false or misunderstands many things.
The story began, as someone wanted to make a book on Muhammed (a children's book I think, but am not sure), and not a negative book in anyway, but simply just to find out who he actually was. But he had a problem, no one dared to illustrate his book. The newspaper then said "this can't be true, that people are afraid to such a thing, because of what happened to Leon Van Gogh". So they asked a bunch of various famous drawers in danish newspapers, and ended up gathering 12 drawings by 12 people, which they shown.
Was it an unnecessary provokation? Maybe. So far it doesn't sound like it as such. But afterwards, when the first protests came, from danish muslims, it was disgusting to read the paper being so delighted in a "yay we provokated and made muslims unhappy" sentiment. And each day since Spetemper stories of the drawings have been front page on their paper, and the self-smug attitude of "oh man we are so good, we make people angry, and they are idiots" is repulsive.
So, so far, at that time, I disagreed fully with the newspaper.
But that changed in the last weeks, with the protests, the burning of my flag, and whatsnot. The big problem is, they blame the country, that means, they blame me. I didn't do it, I didn't publish the drawings, most people didn't approve or publish the drawings, and neither did the government. Why are we getting blamed? Why am I hated? I didn't do shit, and I always supported the palestinians, I was always more positive of the new leader in Iran, that everyone else hates. And I do all that for them, and then they do this to me. Well, they can go to hell.
Why blame me? Why blame the country? Maybe it's because that the muslim countries are so undemocratic, that they think a paper is related to the countries beliefs and that papers are independent voices who has nothing to do with what the country wants and believes, isn't an option for them. (I want to note here, that I am of course not talking about all in the Middle East, like I don't want them to judge all Danes for the actions of one newspaper, likewise won't I judge all people in the middle east, for the actions of some, so I'm not talking generally about all muslims here, but merely the ones who are hating)
What makes it worse, is that when a danish muslim delegation went to the muslim countries to show these drawings, to get the muslim countries to be angry, they showed also other drawings, one depicting Muhammed as a pig, ones that was never shown in the paper, but one that they (the muslims) made themselves, to depict and even stronger reaction against Denmark.
But fortunally, I am avoided to be on the other side and cheer for the paper. Yesterday I read their leaders article expressing the view points in the new situation. Here they said, that the other danish papers were wusses, and they attacked another paper, (who had written that this shows, that muslim faith is used by people who are dangerous for the west), with their words "duh! some of us knew that since 9/11, welcome to the real world". I hate it, when someone always uses 9/11 as an explanation. One thing is that the american president uses it, but a newspaper in a foreign country making itself a martyr of it, jerks.
So know I am in the sad situation, that I don't agree with any of the sides, and just stand alone and cry and wish I was dead, as my world collapses to hell.
Voltaire once said "I disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it". I guess that's my viewpoint too, even though I hate the stinking paper.
I guess you all have seen the drawings, if anyone needs help to find them, then I know how to see them. But do so at your own risk.. etc.
Now I just hope this stinking case will die! Bye.