the moment were all becomes clear, when water hits the drop
Let this be a warning to you all, I am drunk, and I may or may not, write strange strange loving comments in your LJ entries etc.
Right now, I'm drinking the beer I was left on the party of the university party where I helped clean sometime last year. The expiry date on this particular beer is May 2005, and it doesn't taste good, but I can't let it go to waste. I hear drunk people all over the place, I must join them, they have hammered on my door.
I am sitting quietly, drinking, and listening to awesome music, and mostly to the most extreme unconventional and most hated band ever, Amon Düül. But I realised, that these last weeks, when listening to that kind of music, then I really need to hear some Clannad. Yum. Wow, they are shouting now out on the hallway.
Since last time, I have been fixing my bank things. I haven't taken care of them since April 2004, when I did a lot of eBay shopping, and then postponed doing them, and the longer I postponed, the bigger the amount I had to fix and the more the papers I had to do. So finally, in the last 1½ week, I did everything up to December 31st 2005, including checking all my eBay shopping etc. I feel rather proud of myself. Unfortunally, that's pretty much the only sensible thing I have done.
Sevi entered back. When I said to her, that I was sad because she didn't contact me for a month, she answered "does it matter?", I guess not, it we are not in love. A few days ago, when she was indifferent towards me and mean, I gave her a piece of my mind. I said, that I had enough of her ignoring me, and only talking to others, etc. etc. and it must mean, that she didn't love me and love someone else. Things went better after that, she claims she still only loves me. But who cares. Insignificant, I guess.
Before that, I tlked more with the italian girl, Ambra, but she's quite different from me, and quite different from Sevi. They are almost identical age, but apart from that they are completely different. I am thinking what they have in common... oh yes, they both fear churches and aren't particulary devoted to Christianity. But Sevi is ultimative pedantic and superficial, Ambra is pure chaos, very alcoholic and drinking with friends all the time. It's all so difficult. Actually, last time I thought of mentioning a third person, another italian I meet same place as Ambra, Elena. She's also very nice, and very devoted to me, but with a few major flaws: she's younger than me (which I don't like), she is living at home with parents and haven't really seen the world (I believe, that living alone, and all that, managing all yourself, helps maturing a person, so in that way, she lacks some maturing aspects), she wants to live the quiet old fashioned life, the husband at work, the wife at home, and I appreciate both persons setting political and religious standards for what they want and who they want to be with.
Blah, blah. Anyways, I just heard someone trying to get in where I live (fortunally the door was locked), and then I heard a girl shout "no, that's not where I live". Fun times!
"Traurigkeit ist alles dort zum Leben ist"