Angsty blog time! (with a little added slashfic update + a little sample of the fic I'm working on!)
Highschool is hard. Enough said. I love writing, and I like the style that I write in. Apparently, my douchebag english teacher doesn't. He wants me to write HIS way and hell no am I changing my style just for him! So I have an F in my FAVORITE subject. I also will probably have to flunk out and go into regular English I because life sucks and writing is my best subject and I feel like an idiot. Yay highschool. *sarcasm*
Also, I'm getting into a nasty fucking habit of skipping class. I know I shoudn't have done it the first time, but then I just sort of got addicted and I can't even count on one hand how many times I've done it already and it's only the end of first quarter. At least I haven't gotten caught yet. Thank fucking god.
My mom won't take me to get my permit because of my grades and my 'i-never-do-my-homework-and-i-fail-at-life' aspect. So much for turning fifteen.
Life sucks, school is hard, and the only relief I get is when I get lost in my stories, and even then I constatnly get interrupted by my nagging mother telling me to do my fucking homework and stop typing up shit. (Well, she doesn't say that exactly, but as long as it's not going to make me the next best author she prety much counts it as shit).
I'm fustrated, filled with angst up to my eyeballs, and have so much homework to do I'll probably end being a super-freshman (which means repeating freshman year, and that would totally make me just drop highschool totally and all of my dreams will be crushed).
So, you're probably done with hearing about my saddening life and need something to cheer you up, right?! Right!
SLASHY TIMES (om nom?)
So, I think you all know I'm like ADHD when it comes to writing, and once i get a new idea or plot in my head, it bothers me until I totally attack it and lose track of the other thing (or things) that i've been working on at the time. I always return to the other things though, so it's all good.
First of all, I've been on a rampage about highschool boys secretly pining over eachother! YAY PINING! And at my school, there's this one boy in colorguard. Just one boy (and I think i've mentioned this in an earlier entry, but whatever), so I saw him and DING PLOT BUNNY ARRIVES. yessss.
Say hello to Brendon the twilrgirlboy! He prances around the feild in tight clothing twirling flags and rifles and grins all the time and wears bright pink bandanas around his head and is super best friends with the uber awesome drummer in marching band SpencerSmith and Ryan, who works on the newspaper and yearbook staff and wears big white framed hollywood sunglasses and v-neck shirts. Oh and don't forget Jon, who takes pictures for the newspaper and yearbook and is just awesome and chill and has epic chemistry with the drummer-in-marching-band-who-sucks-at-hiding-his-feelings Spencer! Failllll but oh so awesome fail right? =D?
SO, Brendon is pining over Ryan and his awesome apathetic-ness and awesome smiles and awesome hot chocolate he brings to Brendon when they perform at football games in october and its freezing cold. And Ryan is pining over Brendon and his awesome blinding smiles and his awesome clingy-ness to anthing that moves and the awesome dorkface he is by being the only boy in colorguard but so completely proud he is that it makes Ryan bite his cheek to keep from grinning when ever Brendon prances up on the bleachers after a show with his awesome dorkface grin and the ecstatic face he gets whenever Ryan gives him a thumbs up.
*sigh* oh boys. *hearteyes*
So as you can see, its going to be an epic fest of all the fail and humor and fluff and bitchyness and angst that a fic needs. Or at least a fic that I'm writing while being half dead with all the other shit going around in my life. I hope it'll satisfy! I already have about 3,000 words written and I'm on a roll. I just love highschool!AU's. They are like my secret drug, like seriously.
I want to give you a little snippet because I'm filled with angst and bottled up prompts that i need to spill SOME of the awesome pining of bandom boys. Okay? Kay!
A LITTLE PIECE OF BRENDON THE TWIRLGIRL DORKFACE FIC!
It’s finally their break and Brendon motions Spencer back towards the school so they can see Ryan before they have to go back to practice.
When Brendon announces this, Spencer kind of gives him a look and shakes his head like he knew something Brendon didn’t.
He chooses to ignore that, and instead grabs Spencer’s wrist and drags him up to their lockers.
When they walk down the band hallway, Brendon sees Ryan leaning on the wall with his sunglasses perched back up on his head and looking oh-so cool and apathetic.
Brendon gives him a smile before opening his locker and pulling out his towel. He slips off his bandana and wipes the towel over his forehead and damp hair, then his neck. He throws it back inside and then shoves his bandana back on.
When he turns towards Ryan, he tilts his head and Ryan sighs amusedly.
“Brendon, your bandana is crooked,” He says, crossing his arms.
It’s more in his left eye and diagonal then actually on his head and Brendon shrugs. “It’s okay, I’ll look bad ass.”
“No, you look stupid,” Ryan says, laughing softly. “Here let me…”
Ryan steps up into Brendon’s personal space and unties the bandana, then straightening it out and tying it again. His face is concentrated and Brendon tries not to stare at his mouth, which is kind of hard considering how close he is.
Finally Ryan steps back and gives him a nod of approval before turning and talking to Spencer.
Brendon’s kind of frozen, and his stomach is doing this weird fluttery thing and okay, yeah maybe Ryan Ross is the greatest human being on earth.
Sooooo I'm kind of in love with dorkface Brendon and stupid obvious boys. happy dayyyy =D