To weed or not to weed.
So, Spring is springing, but we're still getting snow every few days up here in Yonder Mountains. It's seriously bumming me out. I have about one bowl left of the good stuff I got kicked down to me in December. I can't explain why, but I think that right now it's okay for me to just be stoned all the time. I wouldn't lie, it's a coping mechanism-- I'm lonely and my only peer is a loud, hairy, huge, flatulent, otherwise smelly and completely obnoxious monk. But I can deal with that fine when I'm stoned, and he's a friend when I'm stoned. And I can also deal with being alone much better when I'm stoned, if I want to. And I've also found that lately, I get stoned, I'm high for an two hours, I bawl for an hour, and then I have this intense clarity about everything for a little while. I know it's chemically induced and probably putting my brain through chemical hell, but the two hours of peace and later clarity is worth the hour of bawling, which I'm not sure isn't also good in itself. What can I say? I like smokin' in the springtime. But supplies are dwindling, and Roshi gets here in a week. I'd really liked to be stoned from now until then... but I don't see it happening. Maybe I'll be pleasantly surprised.