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today really put a lot of things into perspective for me. jordan's dad died sunday night from lymphoma, and i left last night to go back to long island for the funeral this morning. i was kind of nervous at first, to have to face jordan during somehing unbelievable in his life, but im really glad i went. first, i realized the strength of my friendships with some people, that i know jordan did just like that i came home, he needed me home. it made me really reflect on my own life and kind of put things into perspective and realize that life is so short. as the rabbi had said during the eulogy, life is but a passing wind, like a fleeting gust hitting our faces and then leaving. i was also thinking of how odd it was that we were all talking about someone who was sitting in a wood box in front of us, lifeless. when jordan spoke, i was really happy what he said. he made everyone laugh and feel comfortable and i think he helped a lot of people get through the funeral very easy. i know hes going to be upset obviously, but after seeing him all day today and last night, i know hes going to be alright. it was weird just me chris and jordan together, and it felt just like i looked at the past 12 years of my life again in retrospect with my friends. i thought about how weird it is, that i knew his dad well, and the fact that he just wasnt coming back ever. i also got to know him more than i would have through jordan showing me pictures and stuff and it was a really personal experience oddly because i felt like i knew his dad well, and could relate in some way to all the eulogies, from the son to his father, brother to his brother, and lastly as a friend. and it was just a strange experience that im glad i had, even if it was hard to sit through and hear people talk about. i also realized in a good way, that im missing out on something amazing by writing off being in a relationship. when his mom talked about their marriage and stuff, i realized that i hope i can find someone like that and be in relationship where the person youre with is your best friend but also the most important person in your life and visa versa. i dont know, i had a good day actually even though it was for a sad reason, but it definitely was a good experience this whole week.