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so jake came last weekend to visit, which was fun. we hung out with jason and andrew thursday night at andrews place and then emilys apartment. i had class the next day, so i had to leave earlier, but then i saw them again friday night. we went to willy's party, but it was so overwhelming, and his house was too small. cayla wanted to go to the bar with me, and i wanted to go, but i was in the dump because i was supposed to buy some drugs with kyle, and then it didnt work out, so i smoked his weed, and then didnt buy beer because i thought we were going to roll at some show at the bar, so then i realized that i also had to wake up early next morning to go to the city, and between all of this, i just decided to leave early and sleep since i was disappointed. oh well, lol. saturday night there was nothing going on so i ended up hanging out with just jake and jason which was kind of nice actually because it was like "old times." except that im broke now, and have no money, so i have to crack my parents open like a piggy bank. the problem is, once u crack open a piggy bank, you cant get any more money saved up from it, so i think this is the only time theyre going to let me do this lol. emily, my professor, put one of my sculptures in the Fine and Performing Arts school display case in the welcome center, which is cool because now its on display for all the administrators/visitors/students/faculty,ect/ to see everyday. i wonder what people think about it.
which brings me on to the next saga of my art life. so i realized that ive been obsessing myself in art history to compensate for a lack of art work ive been doing. i realized ive barely been doing any art this semester, mainly because i dropped photography, and sculpture we do a lot less work that i anticipated. i realized though, you really cant be as prolific in sculpture because you have to master technique, unlike painting, because its time consuming, expensive, and has more risk attached to it than a 2dimensional medium like photography or painting where you can afford to learn and make mistakes. anyway, were starting welding and fabrication which is kind of cool. i have this idea to create a body form with steel rods, and then drape it so it looks like a person underneath. the assignment is to create a form that represent a macro and micro relationship, but simultaneously creating tension and balance. how profound. anyway, so i was going to cast my hands again, and then somehow show the person manipulating something, not sure what yet, to show how humans manipulate their environments, for better or worse, and it explores the unlikely macro/micro relationship of a human as a macro, and the environment as a micro, but also suggesting that the environment is inevitably a macro and humans the micro. anyway, i have to start doing a lot of things. first, i need to get some of the study abroad things out of the way, to clear my name for acceptance. i found out kyles friend is going to prague as well, and one of my neighbors who goes to buffalo, coincidentally. its cool because i saw people are coming from a lot of schools like, new paltz, geneseo, buffalo, purchase, whitman, drexel, syracuse, iona, ect. and theres also other students from schools like cornell, nyu, columbia, ect. in other programs as well as other europeans studying in prague so it should be an interesting experience, especially considering everybody HAS to be interested in meeting new people since nobody really knows each other, and were all were going to have. i also need to get some stuff ready for my bfa interview for sculpture, apply for some transfer applications, start my term papers already *scary* how fast this semester is going. not so much anyway, but up until like 2 weeks ago, i still felt like the semester was just beginning and now i forget how warm it could be and how dreadfully hot it was, and now i freeze my ass off getting dinner every night, only aware of the fact that its going to get colder and colder. im going to a lecture tonight from a printmaker,whose name happens to be richard gere, lol. next week my professor asked me to go to this lecture for this african american photographer, deborah willis. for some reason her name sounded strikingly familiar, and i realized i had met 2 years ago, at nyu during the tisch open house. i think its odd how somehow fate has our paths crossed again, and im looking at nyu again to transfer to.
im still trying to evaluate my social situation here. sometimes, i feel lucky i have the friends i do, and im happy with the ones i have. then other times, i feel lonely because i dont live off campus with my other friends, and i dont need to go into why, because ive explained it already, but my social network here basically collapse and although i know a lot of people, theres only a select few i would consider my 'friends.' i kind of wish kyle would break up with sam already, i know it sounds selfish, but shes such an overprotective bitch. she always has to get her way, and she mentally abuses him and drive everyone else up with wall because of it. i also get to hang out with one of my few good friends less because she either has work, and demands he comes over to her place, or steal him for hte night because she doesnt want to go out. come on, were in college, you can still go out with your friends even if your in a relationship, you dont need to be alone all the time, just part of the time. its not like one of them doesnt belong in our group of friends, they all do so its an irrelevant excuse. this is one of the biggest problem plaguing my semester, but also im afraid of having to deal with meeting new people next fall if i actually do transfer. im afraid,i admit, of having to start college all over again, meeting new people and such. it was hard enough when it was easy, now its only going to be more difficult. like, how do you meet people?! i hate living in dorms, icant deal with a roommate again, and i cant see how you meet people off campus. so many things to think about. it would be one thing if i didnt have ANYTHING here, but even when i hate it here sometimes, i also know that i have collateral here if i decide to leave.
which brings me on to the next saga of my art life. so i realized that ive been obsessing myself in art history to compensate for a lack of art work ive been doing. i realized ive barely been doing any art this semester, mainly because i dropped photography, and sculpture we do a lot less work that i anticipated. i realized though, you really cant be as prolific in sculpture because you have to master technique, unlike painting, because its time consuming, expensive, and has more risk attached to it than a 2dimensional medium like photography or painting where you can afford to learn and make mistakes. anyway, were starting welding and fabrication which is kind of cool. i have this idea to create a body form with steel rods, and then drape it so it looks like a person underneath. the assignment is to create a form that represent a macro and micro relationship, but simultaneously creating tension and balance. how profound. anyway, so i was going to cast my hands again, and then somehow show the person manipulating something, not sure what yet, to show how humans manipulate their environments, for better or worse, and it explores the unlikely macro/micro relationship of a human as a macro, and the environment as a micro, but also suggesting that the environment is inevitably a macro and humans the micro. anyway, i have to start doing a lot of things. first, i need to get some of the study abroad things out of the way, to clear my name for acceptance. i found out kyles friend is going to prague as well, and one of my neighbors who goes to buffalo, coincidentally. its cool because i saw people are coming from a lot of schools like, new paltz, geneseo, buffalo, purchase, whitman, drexel, syracuse, iona, ect. and theres also other students from schools like cornell, nyu, columbia, ect. in other programs as well as other europeans studying in prague so it should be an interesting experience, especially considering everybody HAS to be interested in meeting new people since nobody really knows each other, and were all were going to have. i also need to get some stuff ready for my bfa interview for sculpture, apply for some transfer applications, start my term papers already *scary* how fast this semester is going. not so much anyway, but up until like 2 weeks ago, i still felt like the semester was just beginning and now i forget how warm it could be and how dreadfully hot it was, and now i freeze my ass off getting dinner every night, only aware of the fact that its going to get colder and colder. im going to a lecture tonight from a printmaker,whose name happens to be richard gere, lol. next week my professor asked me to go to this lecture for this african american photographer, deborah willis. for some reason her name sounded strikingly familiar, and i realized i had met 2 years ago, at nyu during the tisch open house. i think its odd how somehow fate has our paths crossed again, and im looking at nyu again to transfer to.
im still trying to evaluate my social situation here. sometimes, i feel lucky i have the friends i do, and im happy with the ones i have. then other times, i feel lonely because i dont live off campus with my other friends, and i dont need to go into why, because ive explained it already, but my social network here basically collapse and although i know a lot of people, theres only a select few i would consider my 'friends.' i kind of wish kyle would break up with sam already, i know it sounds selfish, but shes such an overprotective bitch. she always has to get her way, and she mentally abuses him and drive everyone else up with wall because of it. i also get to hang out with one of my few good friends less because she either has work, and demands he comes over to her place, or steal him for hte night because she doesnt want to go out. come on, were in college, you can still go out with your friends even if your in a relationship, you dont need to be alone all the time, just part of the time. its not like one of them doesnt belong in our group of friends, they all do so its an irrelevant excuse. this is one of the biggest problem plaguing my semester, but also im afraid of having to deal with meeting new people next fall if i actually do transfer. im afraid,i admit, of having to start college all over again, meeting new people and such. it was hard enough when it was easy, now its only going to be more difficult. like, how do you meet people?! i hate living in dorms, icant deal with a roommate again, and i cant see how you meet people off campus. so many things to think about. it would be one thing if i didnt have ANYTHING here, but even when i hate it here sometimes, i also know that i have collateral here if i decide to leave.