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I had my first full day of work yesterday.It was great.I cut vegetables all day.I forgot how much I really enjoy working with food.It's meditation for me.Chopping,grilling,all of it.It makes me happy.I cout my first resentment towards Erin yesterday.It was dumb.I called her and she told me about some issues that she was having and said that she wanted to see me.I rushed home so she could come over.She called at the last minute and said she wasn't coming.It didn't feel good.I kinda just got off the phone in a bad mood.I started thinking about the events and realized that she was doing what she needed for herself whatever that was.Yeah it sucks that I rushed home for no reason.It didn't make me happy.But that's life.I know she didn't purpousely hurt me.She was not having a good day or a good week for that matter.Before I went to sleep I sent her a text that said "good nite baby,I love you."She sent one back that said"nite babe.Love you to.thanks for being there for me.I got your text right when I needed it.love you."