Today

[godhet]

I was supposed to go out with my friend today, but it's not going to happen. I know she has stuff going on, but my depression is really bad today. Just the thought of going out today )a Saturday when everyone else is out) in this awful city is enough to give me severe anxiety. Ok the other hand, I need to talk to someone as I am being consumed by my dark thoughts, stuck in my room either staring at the tiny window in here or sobbing to myself.

I don't know what to do anymore.