Fool me once shame on you. Fool me twice shame on me!
So this is very amusing. Reading the previous entry in my journal and discovering how wrong I was. Is it so wrong that I gave myself emotionnally to someone only to get it thrown back in my face? I feel like i've been used and taken advantage of. I gave some of the best parts of myself to someone and thought that the feelings were returned but apparently the last 5 weeks were all a lie.
Oh but it's not you it's me. How many times have i heard that line. In fact i've used it myself a couple of times. I certainly know that when in fact they say that it often is the other person's fault.
Hey how about this one. I just want to be your friend. If i wanted to be friends with you i wouldn't have fucked you or brought you to meet my family. That was a mistake. Now i have to endure weeks of, "So how are things with you and said person?" I can hear my brother now "guess now she's gonna turn back to life as a lesbian".
All of this torture because i got to emotionally attached to quickly and said person couldn't tell me how he really felt.
When was he gonna tell me? I can't believe he led me on for at least about 3 weeks. Even after i told him how I felt. He should have just told me then and spared me the embarassment i'm going through now. He told me he was waiting for an appropriate time to tell me that he didn't want to be in a relationship with me. So all weekend when we were alone in ur house wasn't appropriate? Or Tuesday when we went to the Eaton Centre and sat for an hour at Nathan Phillips Square?
I think he is just a coward. How else can i explain it. He had plenty of opportunity to tell me but chose to do it on MSN. Then when i asked to talk to him on the phone he said no.
I don't think i'll be trusting guys for awhile. I can't even look at them right now. I have never felt that way about anyone ever. I trusted him and gave him all of me and he threw it away.
The funny thing though? He still wants to see me like were dating but with no affection. He even expects me to spend the weekends there still. But you had ur chance and passed on it.I will be ur friend but things will never ever be the same.
Oh but it's not you it's me. How many times have i heard that line. In fact i've used it myself a couple of times. I certainly know that when in fact they say that it often is the other person's fault.
Hey how about this one. I just want to be your friend. If i wanted to be friends with you i wouldn't have fucked you or brought you to meet my family. That was a mistake. Now i have to endure weeks of, "So how are things with you and said person?" I can hear my brother now "guess now she's gonna turn back to life as a lesbian".
All of this torture because i got to emotionally attached to quickly and said person couldn't tell me how he really felt.
When was he gonna tell me? I can't believe he led me on for at least about 3 weeks. Even after i told him how I felt. He should have just told me then and spared me the embarassment i'm going through now. He told me he was waiting for an appropriate time to tell me that he didn't want to be in a relationship with me. So all weekend when we were alone in ur house wasn't appropriate? Or Tuesday when we went to the Eaton Centre and sat for an hour at Nathan Phillips Square?
I think he is just a coward. How else can i explain it. He had plenty of opportunity to tell me but chose to do it on MSN. Then when i asked to talk to him on the phone he said no.
I don't think i'll be trusting guys for awhile. I can't even look at them right now. I have never felt that way about anyone ever. I trusted him and gave him all of me and he threw it away.
The funny thing though? He still wants to see me like were dating but with no affection. He even expects me to spend the weekends there still. But you had ur chance and passed on it.I will be ur friend but things will never ever be the same.