I Think I'm in Love.........or Lust anyways
So I show up at this bar. Wally's. I was totally not expecting to pickup but was just going to hang with friends. After all if I was going to pick up I wouldn't have worn jeans and a tanktop. So I saw this boy standing across the room and thought he was really hot. I tried to make eye contact with him but he didn't seem interested. I tried to dance provacativly infront of him but to no luck. Then i saw him slow dancing with another girl so i figured he was off limits. Boy was I wrong. I began talking with my friend Rina and she asked me if I thought anybody here was cute. I told her about that guy. She said he was really shy and that she'd talk to him for me to see if he was indeed taken. Well he wasn't. He came over and started chatting. At that point a string of 5 slow songs came on and he asked me to dance. Well we danced to all five. At this point i was really diggin him and i think he was diggin me. i mean he kept touchin me not that i didn't like it though. But it was gettin late and the bar was about to close. That's when we decided to take the party to the casino. So were at the casino watchin his friend Brent play BJ. Again he can't keep his hands off me. So it's going well. My friend Susan was there and she had to leave at 5 to go pick up her boy toy at work. So at 5 we go to leave and Jay(That's his name)goes to walk me to her car. We Kiss. It's awesome. Can't get enough of him kissing me. Well that's when he offered to drive me home. Now this is special cuz he lives in Oshawa so to dirve me home is kinda outta his way so it was sweet. So then we went back in the casino and played more then went back to his house. It was weird cuz at this time it was 6 in the morning and i'm goin to some guys house and he lives at his parents but it's a basement apartment. Well u know what. His mom was up doin the laundry at 6 in the basement so we ran into her. kinda ackward but apparently she hasn't said anything to Jay about it. and apparently i'm the first girl he's ever brought back to the house. So we go to bed and don't do much cuz it's that time of the month but he's ok with that cuz he hoped to see me again. So the next day we wake up and go to dinner and he drives me home. But instead of just dropping me off he stayed another 3 hours watching TV with me and spooning with me. It was great. I enjoyed him being there so much. Then he had to go. I then went on MSN and he was on there. So now i've chatted with him everyday on MSN. I had a soccer dinner yesterday in Ajax. So that gave me an opportunity to spend time with Jay. We decided before hand that i was gonna stay overnight and catch the train into work. That would give us more time to be together. It was awesome. We watched TV and then played alittle. Well bec’s I know ur asking the question. Did u sleep with him? The answer - Yes. Twice. Then we showered together. And for me u know that’s good cuz I would never shower with anyone not even when I dated Paul. Then we went to bed. We woke up and I looked at him and wondered how I got so lucky. I mean he respects me and trusts me. It feels good just to be around him. These feelings r kinda scaring me cuz we’ve only been on 2 dates. I’m spending all weekend with him so hopefully I’ll find out some answer then. I really want this one to work out. If I’m picking his vibe up correctly he wants to be with me but I’ve had so many let downs in the past couple of months that I’m not trusting my instincts. It’s the little things he does. Moves my hair outta my face. Holds me when were watching TV. Caresses my shoulders, arms, hands, legs when were on the couch. Holds my hand and thigh in the car. Touchs my cheek when he kisses me. But maybe these signs are just me wanting something to be there. Only time will tell but for now I’m just baskin in the way he makes me feel.