I'm going mental cuz of boys

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So it seems that lately I have been neglecting my journal. So from now on I think I’ll try to enter more. I promise it won’t be stuff about boys anymore. I’ve had enough of them. Well except for a certain one but it’s too early to tell with him. So what’s been goin on since the Jay Escapade? Well not too much. I have moved to a new apartment with Jon. Yes we have left Chris behind for greener pastures. I sorta feel bad….. But not really! I think is was time for him to move on. Hopefully this will give him that swift kick in the ass that he needs to do something with his life besides play videogames and ramble on about useless nonsense while at the same time trying to sound all superior. LOL! What a knob. I have been dating different people here and there but haven’t really found anyone who I feel deserves my company. I mean their nice and everything but I keep finding out that they all have a fatal flaw to them. I mean first there was Adam. The virgin. How anyone could be a virgin these days is beyond me, but hey u have to respect him for sticking to his decision. Then there was Security Sean. The Playa. He tried to pick up my friend while with me at the club and he thought that was Ok because he thought we didn’t know each other. Boy was he stupid. Then there was Andy. Mr. NO-Show. He always makes plans with me then never shows up and won’t call me about it until like three weeks later and then promises that next time he’ll be there for sure. Then there was Noah. The Jew. There’s nothing wrong with him other than he’s a pot smoking bum that has no job and is short. And let’s face it girls no one wants a man that is shorter than they are. Then there was Andrew. The Cripple. Yup that’s what I said. I met him online and he seemed nice and normal but then he told me the other day that he walks with a cane cuz he has Cerebral Palsy. Now I know this might sound shallow but hey I’m just being realistic. That kinda thing affects how u feel about a person. So finally there is Sean. He’s the one I’m sorta into right now. He’s Single Dad. Yup that’s his only flaw that I know of so far. Hopefully there aren’t anymore. But I Don’t consider his three yr old a flaw. It shows me the type of man that he is. One that takes responsibility for his actions. I have a lot of respect for him and know that he wouldn’t do anything purposely to hurt me. But it’s too early to tell where things are going with him so I’ll have to update u. So with all these flaws Deja and I have decided that we are not going to try and find men on the internet anymore. And if we do the first thing we are gonna ask ourselves is What is Their Flaw. What’s wrong with them that they have to find someone of the internet?

So right now ur prolly thinking that I’m crazy. Well you’re probably right.

So I got this msg the other day on my messenger. It was from Jay. Askin me when we were gonna get together for a beer. I replied but only to be polite. I said I wasn’t really free a lot these days. He said that a weekday was fine and that he’d try and fit into my schedule. Weird eh? Then I said that I was free tonight(Weds nite) and he said that it was ok with him too. So now I’m in a jam. Do I go with him? I have decided to wait and see if he’ll actually msg me the day of our planned meeting and so far he did not. So I guess that means another three weeks of no contact with him. I just don’t understand. If he truly did wanna be friends then why does he treat me like the scum he scraped of his shoe.? I wish he would just make up his mind and decide once and for all what he wants. Do you want to be my friend or not? Cuz I can honestly tell you that at this point I don’t care either way. I’m completely over that now. You go have a nice life and if you want to be friends then act like it. Either do it the whole way or not at all. You can’t just expect me to drop everything I’m doing and hang out with you. JUST GROW UP!!!!