(Untitled)

[gmoney425]

christine broke up with me today, after calling me to tell me that she kissed some guy last night. she said she's been holding this in for a while, and that she's lied about being okay for a while. which pisses me off, because how could we have done anything to work on us if i can't read minds? i know she's not as attracted to me as when we

Comments

[gmoney425]

it is interesting. christine said she just wanted to have fun. well, we had plenty of fun, and i've done everything i could for her, i know i've made mistakes but none that can't be repaired if the interest was there. i think she still wants to be with me somewhere inside of her, maybe a year down the line or something. all i can do is be a good friend to her and ask for the same in return, which i think i deserve after all i've done for her. plus we know each other as well as any two people can. who knows, maybe those two kids will get together. it would be funny. i am hurt and i know you are too, and i'm sorry that he did that to you, but you can't talk death, i know i've sure thought about it before, but if they took you for granted, and hurt you in the end, then are they really worth dying for? the only way i'd want to die for christine would be in protection of her, like taking a bullet, so that when i died she would know that all i really cared about was her safety, well being, and happiness. that's really the only way that i

[gmoney425]

i'm not waiting. she's going to have her time over the next year or so to have fun or whatever she wants, and to find some other guys to be with, and you know what? they wont treat her nearly as well as i have, and hopefully she wont settle for that and will realize what a mistake she made. then if she comes back, i'll think about taking her back. i can't wait. i can't even really be her friend in person right now because it hurts too much. if she calls me i'll talk to her for hours. but i can't hang out with her, it hurts. i know trew's a liar, and i know he and christine smoke a lot more than they let on, which is crappy, because i told her it was okay as long as she told me when she did it. the lying has to go. i knew alex was up here, and i know that christine refused to lie for trew. trew's not a great friend most of the time, and though i like him, i don't think he really fought for christine's happiness in any regard, only for an immediate gain. if they really do deserve us, in the long run, then they will realize. that's all i

[gmoney425]

yeah im serious about alex, i'll say it because i know christine was avoiding it because trew asked her to lie for him. he made hannah do it too. i know christine loved me, and still does. but she wants to have fun, and someday maybe she'll have her fill of fun and decide i really am good for her. or maybe not. thats really the only 2 choices. we made such a good couple, but its true that we are in different places in life, age-wise and relationship-wise, in that i'm 21, she's 17, i've had my heart torn apart numerous times, not even knowing if this is the worst, and she's had it happen maybe twice. i've been invested in this relationship more than she could even fathom, and i think she was in it for fun most times, in it for love the rest of the time, and fun won out somehow. you are in denial, as am i, i think i'm doing better with it now. just let things run their course, because if it's meant to be, it will be. god's not that cruel. two days before christine dumped me, i was angry with her and i looked up to the sky and asked god