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[gmoney425]

christine broke up with me today, after calling me to tell me that she kissed some guy last night. she said she's been holding this in for a while, and that she's lied about being okay for a while. which pisses me off, because how could we have done anything to work on us if i can't read minds? i know she's not as attracted to me as when we

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[gmoney425]

yeah im serious about alex, i'll say it because i know christine was avoiding it because trew asked her to lie for him. he made hannah do it too. i know christine loved me, and still does. but she wants to have fun, and someday maybe she'll have her fill of fun and decide i really am good for her. or maybe not. thats really the only 2 choices. we made such a good couple, but its true that we are in different places in life, age-wise and relationship-wise, in that i'm 21, she's 17, i've had my heart torn apart numerous times, not even knowing if this is the worst, and she's had it happen maybe twice. i've been invested in this relationship more than she could even fathom, and i think she was in it for fun most times, in it for love the rest of the time, and fun won out somehow. you are in denial, as am i, i think i'm doing better with it now. just let things run their course, because if it's meant to be, it will be. god's not that cruel. two days before christine dumped me, i was angry with her and i looked up to the sky and asked god to give me a sign as to whether or not i should stay with her, even though she was sick and in pain.
i'd say that this was a pretty big sign. or a big test. there's two sides to every story. pick the best one, the one that doesnt result in you hurting yourself or anybody else.
especially yourself. because no one person is big enough to live or die for. i won't live for christine, nor would i die for her, besides in protection of her. thats the only scenario in which it makes sense. process that thru your head, breathe, get through the heartache and begin to open up your eyes.

you ever take physics? "for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction"
basically...."when god closes a door, he opens a window..."

breathe...