Thankful for our little inifinity
“Some infinities are bigger than other infinities… There are days, many of them, when I resent the size of my unbound set. But Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity.”
So i just finished reading the all raved about The Fault In Our Stars and YES IM DEVASTATED BY THE ENDING but I definitely expected some death halfway through the book anyway. Really love Augustus and Hazel Grace together cuz their love is so pure and so deep and Augustus is simply the sweetest boy AAAH *~* Really loved all the quotes in the book as they spoke to me in so many different aspects and it also got me thinking about life and the universe and how it all plays out.
Whether as Shakespeare puts it, the fault is not in our stars but in ourselves? Or are our lives something we really cannot control and the fault is indeed in our stars? "Accept things I cannot change, have the courage to change the things I can, and have the wisdom to know the difference." I think that although we can't really choose what gets thrown our way, its how we deal with it that matters. I do admit that I worry WAAAY too much sometimes, and its something I really am trying to change but I still can't help sometimes. "My thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations. I always have too many thoughts, incoherent ones, swimming all over in my head and perhaps drowning me some days. I worry about whether taking Business is the right choice, whether staying in hall will be worth the other things I have to sacrifice, about friendships to be made and perhaps lost as well, and endless other problems like my weight etc. I guess there will always be something for us to worry about, and we just have to learn how to let things go and trust that they will be the right choices and things will work out. "Be satisfied. Be grateful. For what you have. For the love you receive. And for what God has given you." (ok this quote isnt from TFIOS HAHA BUT I've actually been writing down all the interesting quotes I've found in the books I've been reading since post a levels and they're all really good too so yes i will share em when relevant)
Anyway, I guess I'm also thankful for our little(or big?) infinity. Really had the best memories together and thinking back it actually started waaay before JC. Like in sec 3 or so HAHAHA. During the year of crazy changes and stressful situations which I was so thankful to have someone to just listen to my rants and be there for me to do my *text in awkward situations* move HAHA. And I honestly don't regret any of it all despite it having to end like this. "Waking up was horrible, because for a disorientated moment I felt like everything was fine and then it crushed me anew." It used to be that bad during the first two weeks, where it'd just hit me and my heart will ache so, so badly. Felt like an empty hole in my heart that could never ever be filled. Still trying to figure out where we're going from here, but I'm positive that despite how many people tell me this isn't the way to heal, I think that making this transition from lovers to friends is the best way for us. Slowly but surely. They say "First love never dies. But true love can bury it alive." Perhaps, one day.
Too many quotes to list down so here is a mindmap of it HAHAHA.
love love love spending my afternoons just being absorbed and sucked into a book. (along with some food of course HAHA) As this uni break is slowly coming to an end, really treasuring every lazy afternoon i can get.
xx
So i just finished reading the all raved about The Fault In Our Stars and YES IM DEVASTATED BY THE ENDING but I definitely expected some death halfway through the book anyway. Really love Augustus and Hazel Grace together cuz their love is so pure and so deep and Augustus is simply the sweetest boy AAAH *~* Really loved all the quotes in the book as they spoke to me in so many different aspects and it also got me thinking about life and the universe and how it all plays out.
Whether as Shakespeare puts it, the fault is not in our stars but in ourselves? Or are our lives something we really cannot control and the fault is indeed in our stars? "Accept things I cannot change, have the courage to change the things I can, and have the wisdom to know the difference." I think that although we can't really choose what gets thrown our way, its how we deal with it that matters. I do admit that I worry WAAAY too much sometimes, and its something I really am trying to change but I still can't help sometimes. "My thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations. I always have too many thoughts, incoherent ones, swimming all over in my head and perhaps drowning me some days. I worry about whether taking Business is the right choice, whether staying in hall will be worth the other things I have to sacrifice, about friendships to be made and perhaps lost as well, and endless other problems like my weight etc. I guess there will always be something for us to worry about, and we just have to learn how to let things go and trust that they will be the right choices and things will work out. "Be satisfied. Be grateful. For what you have. For the love you receive. And for what God has given you." (ok this quote isnt from TFIOS HAHA BUT I've actually been writing down all the interesting quotes I've found in the books I've been reading since post a levels and they're all really good too so yes i will share em when relevant)
Anyway, I guess I'm also thankful for our little(or big?) infinity. Really had the best memories together and thinking back it actually started waaay before JC. Like in sec 3 or so HAHAHA. During the year of crazy changes and stressful situations which I was so thankful to have someone to just listen to my rants and be there for me to do my *text in awkward situations* move HAHA. And I honestly don't regret any of it all despite it having to end like this. "Waking up was horrible, because for a disorientated moment I felt like everything was fine and then it crushed me anew." It used to be that bad during the first two weeks, where it'd just hit me and my heart will ache so, so badly. Felt like an empty hole in my heart that could never ever be filled. Still trying to figure out where we're going from here, but I'm positive that despite how many people tell me this isn't the way to heal, I think that making this transition from lovers to friends is the best way for us. Slowly but surely. They say "First love never dies. But true love can bury it alive." Perhaps, one day.
Too many quotes to list down so here is a mindmap of it HAHAHA.
love love love spending my afternoons just being absorbed and sucked into a book. (along with some food of course HAHA) As this uni break is slowly coming to an end, really treasuring every lazy afternoon i can get.
xx