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Oh my... I feel very disconnected. My computer is on the fritz, so I have not been able to go on there for a while... and I never get the chance to get on the internet much anywhere else.. It's pretty sad how much ones social life and communication actually depends on these things. Buuut oh well. the time away gives me lots of time to ponder and ( Read more... )

Casual misunderstandings? Or intentional abuse? fuck if i know, but do NOT stir up my crap behind my back, especially when you have no fucking clue what you're talking about, and you could be spending your time a lot more constructively. if you have hunches you ask ME, the only person who will have the correct answer, and I will either answer or ( Read more... )

shot out exhaust in the rain. it was gross out today.. dan let me leave at 10 tonight. i put nasty porn on jimmy's laptop when he left it at school. he deserved it, he's obnoxious and wanted it. my eyes hurt. i am such a messed person. i have to go to school in three hours.. i am so out of it.. it's like my brain is just giving up on me so ( Read more... )

i'd roll the windows up if they weren't smashed in. this pollutant smog covering the city is sucking me so thin.
            i'm not very inconspicuous while i'm lost in an explosion of confetti, 
                                                                                within a deep black sea that matches my pupils, 
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i hate this. i feel horrible. i feel like i'm being torn apart at the flesh. my stomach keeps churning. this churning like it's trying to digest but it's probably just eating the walls of my tissue. i don't want to feel like this. i feel like something beautiful is gone forever, and i can't help it. i blame myself for everything. let me sleep..

all around me, people are being torn apart, people are dying, and people don't know what to do with themselves. i haven't been able to sleep in the last little while, awake for days, and my eyes are swollen with feelings trying to pound themselves out onto my cheeks. sleep deprivation used to help me write cooler more fucked up songs. now i can't ( Read more... )

In attribution theory, the fundamental attribution error is the tendency for people to over-emphasize dispositional, or personality-based explanations for behaviors observed in others while under-emphasizing the role and power of situational influences on the same behavior. In other words, people tend to have a default assumption that what a person ( Read more... )

i don't know if anyone else has seen him. but there is this guy with long hair and a beard in a white robe that rides his bike with big handle bars all around kelowna and stuff. everyone knows him as jesus, but i know different. he's a jedi. he has a utility belt! i saw it.

when i was little i used to think to myself and wonder about things in this strange macrocosm that i had just been dropped in. and it always gave me the weirdest butterflies in my stomach. almost like i can't handle it. haha. why is everything the way it is.. why really life is all just one big long dream.. we're just dropped in on this crazy ( Read more... )