Most careers set up for me, given my degree, are to service others who can not quite assist themselves ( Read more... )

I drove through a storm tonight. For more than four hours I drove through some of the most dangerous weather conditions I have ever seen on a highway. But I drove, because I had to. As I slowed the engine to almost a crawl through raging winds and what looked like floods over a mountain pass, with windshield wipers deteriorating and nearsighted to ( Read more... )

i wish you weren't so beautiful
i wish you weren't my favorite [guy]
i wish your lips had never touched my face and changed my world
i wish that i could [keep] fall[ing] in love
i wish my heart could let [this] in
i wish i never had to wave goodbye to you again
i wish you weren't so far away
i wish i never had to say
i wish you weren't so great so leaving ( Read more... )

I can't stay over you.
It seems we drive forever but can never get away from here,
just one more try.
I'm guessing you are over me,
I guess it's bravery.
Because it's black out the window
while you sleep in the passenger seat.
So when it's always on your mind but you never speak of the name.
It's in your blood and face...
...It's like a ball and chain ( Read more... )

I'd think that something this good would make me feel good.  I have no idea how to react.  One of those "anything could happen either way" things.  How unpredictable this world gets.  Really.  I don't even have an immediate fear.  This is weird.  If it had come 2 years ago maybe I would've felt wonderful.  And made the decision straight-away.  All ( Read more... )

"If I'm given just one reason why, my heart just might let go.
    Maybe one day I will fall in love again,
       but for now, I'll just leave my heart in two.
           If I never fall in love again...
              One thing that will never change,
                 is the feeling in my heart,
                     so broken by you."

I should have more control, really. But how do you control something so natural? I'm understanding things that do not give choice a chance.

2 to the 20.
If I hadn't gone through a small transformation within the last year, I would have otherwise...
...actually, I may still feel the same either way.
Two to the Twenty.
That dime slipped between the walls of adolescence and adulthood.
The noncommittal player.
Nearly invisible and visibly near.
Twice a decadence.
A null that follows an ( Read more... )

Such a weird 5 months.  Can't even find the words to say that would sum it all up...

I've just read a thread on the Forum.  A prayer request.  A member asked for us to pray for her high school friend, who apparently was in something "worse than a coma."  I read down the thread, through those offering their support, and then another post: her friend had passed.  I checked up to see how recent the thread had been started, and was ( Read more... )