Quick Write..
Haven't been up to much lately, just keepin' my head in the game and getting my school work done. Things been hectic but i've seem to keep em mellow or remain mellow, don't know which is the one that's changed. You know talking wit my cousin last night and then going through today really made me realize ya know.. there are things out there in life that you may not feel like doing or putting up with them, and you know, you dont really have to go through them, but you must do it anyways because in the long run it is you who succeeds.. it will be Me that will succeed and make it to where i wanna be, to where i thing i belong. So if i have this vision of being where i belong, lets put it to the test and see if i can make it out of where i'm from. Life is nothing but a mental game. You can take it or leave but it in the end its your future that you gamble with. I've had alot of shit put on my plate lately and i'll admit it gets hard, i want to fall to my knee's and just cry sometimes. What still hurts inside, is how one day you can have it all, you just be the happiest person in the world in your eyes...you've just got it, you're on that natural high.. and then.. and then it next day it gets taken away from you.. no more , none of that.. It was hard for me, i got by and still hit some bumps, i think now and it's a memory, sorta wish it would fade away and that i'd lose consciousness and then wake up with out ever having experienced it because then if i dont remember it, then it wouldn't hurt because i wouldn't know how i felt...
I've been getting by lately, just trying to focus on other things lately to keep my busy and my head out of places it shouldn't be. I will make it, just need to keep it together.
I was an independent child, and then i got pampered and got the love i didn't have, and now.. i just need to get back to being that independent person and not rely on one to be there for me, to make me feel better or sometimes even talk too, That independent woman. Me, getting by just how i somehow was in the past... i'll make it, i'll make it on my knee's if i have to, but i will... i will.
I've been getting by lately, just trying to focus on other things lately to keep my busy and my head out of places it shouldn't be. I will make it, just need to keep it together.
I was an independent child, and then i got pampered and got the love i didn't have, and now.. i just need to get back to being that independent person and not rely on one to be there for me, to make me feel better or sometimes even talk too, That independent woman. Me, getting by just how i somehow was in the past... i'll make it, i'll make it on my knee's if i have to, but i will... i will.