Heartbreak
I had a picnic with Colin today. The weather was nice, the food was lovely. The conversation, however, could have been better. I decided to tell Colin that I thought I had developed feelings for him. Feelings beyond the typical best friend type feelings. I was so nervous.
I don't know what I expected him to say. I did expect him to say something though. Anything! He just looked at me and chewed his sandwich very, very slowly. When he was finished, he got up and said he had to get to class. He left. And he never said anything. And there is only one thing that could mean: he thinks I am an utter twit! I cannot believe I told him that! What was I thinking?
I've been crying ever since. I missed my afternoon classes because I was too humiliated to sit next to him. What am I going to do? What if I've ruined everything?
I don't know what I expected him to say. I did expect him to say something though. Anything! He just looked at me and chewed his sandwich very, very slowly. When he was finished, he got up and said he had to get to class. He left. And he never said anything. And there is only one thing that could mean: he thinks I am an utter twit! I cannot believe I told him that! What was I thinking?
I've been crying ever since. I missed my afternoon classes because I was too humiliated to sit next to him. What am I going to do? What if I've ruined everything?