fucking frustrated
Well honestly things bave been pretty good with Aida. We're becoming great friends now. I've been excited because she's coming down to Phoenix for the weekend, and her boyfriends was gonna stay at their friend's house, who is also coming down from Flagstaff. Well now I'm just fucking frustrated because now her boyfriend is saying he doesn't want us hanging out alone, so he has to fucking be there. I mean, I'm happy Aida has someone, but honestly it's too fucking soon for me to even try to be friends with him. I honestly have never liked the guy, and although Aida always brags about how great of a guy he his, I honestly don't see it and don't think he's good enough for her. He's already seeming to be controlling her. I don't know, that's just my perspective. God, I just fucking hate this. It's not that I want to do anything with Aida, that's not why I want to be alone with her. It's just that I would feel to fucking awkward to even talk to Aida if he's just there. I don't know, I just hope Aida will realize why I feel this way. I guess either way I should be happy that I'll hopefully at least get to see her.
Aghh, I feel like getting drunk... or smoking... I need to talk to Josh.
Jimmy Eat World - "Kill"
Well, you're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will
Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance? (chance?)
Or only one way that it was always meant to be (be)
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up put down the phone
Like your favorite Heatmeiser song goes
It's just like being alone
Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain (vain)
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means (means)
You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away
So go on love
Leave while there's still hope for escape
Got to take what you can these days
There's so much ahead
So much regret
I know what you want to say
(Know what you want to say)
I know it but can't help feeling differently
I loved you, and I should have said it
But tell me just what has it ever meant
I can't help it baby, this is who I am (am)
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel (feel)
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
Aghh, I feel like getting drunk... or smoking... I need to talk to Josh.
Jimmy Eat World - "Kill"
Well, you're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will
Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance? (chance?)
Or only one way that it was always meant to be (be)
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up put down the phone
Like your favorite Heatmeiser song goes
It's just like being alone
Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain (vain)
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means (means)
You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away
So go on love
Leave while there's still hope for escape
Got to take what you can these days
There's so much ahead
So much regret
I know what you want to say
(Know what you want to say)
I know it but can't help feeling differently
I loved you, and I should have said it
But tell me just what has it ever meant
I can't help it baby, this is who I am (am)
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel (feel)
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away