everlasting...
"Rose of Sharyn" by Killswitch Engage
Numb and broken,
Here I stand alone,
Wondering what were
The last words I said to you
Hoping, praying that I'll find a way
To turn back time,
Can I turn back time?
What would I give to behold.
The smile the face of love,
You never left me,
The rising sun
Will always speak your name.
Numb, i'm broken
Here i stand alone.
Wondering the words,
The last words i said to you
It won't be long
We'll meet again...
What would i give, to behold
The smile, the face of love?
You never left me
The rising sun
Will always speak your name
It won't be long, we'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long, we'll meet again
My love for you is everlasting.
I mourn for those who never knew you
I mourn for those who never knew you
It won't be long, we'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long, we'll meet again
My love for you is everlasting.
It won't be long, we'll meet again..
It won't be long, we'll meet again..
It won't be long, we'll meet again..
It won't be long, we'll meet again..
So it had been a while since I had really talked to Aida. I tried my best to stop calling her to give her time and space. In the end I'm glad I did so because we started talking again on Monday, and it's like we just had a breakthrough conversation. We were able to just talk, and tell eachother that we still care for eachother and love eachother as friends. I'm starting to feel a lot better about our being friends now. Before it just seemed like we couldn't stop arguing about the past, but we just needed time and space to realize that we still want eachother to continue to be in our lives in the present and future. I guess it seems like we're becoming best friends now, like I'm happy that Aida can come to me with her problems and talk to me about them when she can't with her boyfriend. I know I can't be first place to Aida anymore, but I'm finding myself to be content where I am with Aida. Almost like second place.
I started thinking about our relationship in the beginning, and something that my mom said to me got me thinking. What if the only reason Aida and I stayed together so long was because we found eachother at such devastating points of our lives. I mean, Aida was the only reason I was able to get through dealing with my parent's divorcing. And I was there for Aida as she was struggling with her relationship, or lack-there-of, with her parents. Maybe that's why we were together so long. We had been there for eachother all the time for so long, that we were both afraid of letting eachother go and being alone. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad and definitely don't regret anything that I went through with Aida. Without all of that, I don't think Aida and I would have been able to become such good friends now. There's always a light at the end of the tunnel. And I finally think I'm starting to feel the warmth from the light shining in...
I guess in a way, a part of me still wishes I could take back time, or still be with Aida. I keep thinking to myself, I never knew it was coming. What if I would have known that things between Aida and I were going to end? Would things have been different; would things be different now? If I knew the last time I kissed Aida were going to be the last, I would have never stopped.
I love you Aida.
Numb and broken,
Here I stand alone,
Wondering what were
The last words I said to you
Hoping, praying that I'll find a way
To turn back time,
Can I turn back time?
What would I give to behold.
The smile the face of love,
You never left me,
The rising sun
Will always speak your name.
Numb, i'm broken
Here i stand alone.
Wondering the words,
The last words i said to you
It won't be long
We'll meet again...
What would i give, to behold
The smile, the face of love?
You never left me
The rising sun
Will always speak your name
It won't be long, we'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long, we'll meet again
My love for you is everlasting.
I mourn for those who never knew you
I mourn for those who never knew you
It won't be long, we'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long, we'll meet again
My love for you is everlasting.
It won't be long, we'll meet again..
It won't be long, we'll meet again..
It won't be long, we'll meet again..
It won't be long, we'll meet again..
So it had been a while since I had really talked to Aida. I tried my best to stop calling her to give her time and space. In the end I'm glad I did so because we started talking again on Monday, and it's like we just had a breakthrough conversation. We were able to just talk, and tell eachother that we still care for eachother and love eachother as friends. I'm starting to feel a lot better about our being friends now. Before it just seemed like we couldn't stop arguing about the past, but we just needed time and space to realize that we still want eachother to continue to be in our lives in the present and future. I guess it seems like we're becoming best friends now, like I'm happy that Aida can come to me with her problems and talk to me about them when she can't with her boyfriend. I know I can't be first place to Aida anymore, but I'm finding myself to be content where I am with Aida. Almost like second place.
I started thinking about our relationship in the beginning, and something that my mom said to me got me thinking. What if the only reason Aida and I stayed together so long was because we found eachother at such devastating points of our lives. I mean, Aida was the only reason I was able to get through dealing with my parent's divorcing. And I was there for Aida as she was struggling with her relationship, or lack-there-of, with her parents. Maybe that's why we were together so long. We had been there for eachother all the time for so long, that we were both afraid of letting eachother go and being alone. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad and definitely don't regret anything that I went through with Aida. Without all of that, I don't think Aida and I would have been able to become such good friends now. There's always a light at the end of the tunnel. And I finally think I'm starting to feel the warmth from the light shining in...
I guess in a way, a part of me still wishes I could take back time, or still be with Aida. I keep thinking to myself, I never knew it was coming. What if I would have known that things between Aida and I were going to end? Would things have been different; would things be different now? If I knew the last time I kissed Aida were going to be the last, I would have never stopped.
I love you Aida.