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im sitting here waiting for class to start....im so exhausted hahaha. but its getting better. its funny how now that anthony and i are broken up im expecting so much more of him. now that im not trying to be considerate of him. for the last nine months ive been the ONLY one to get up with liam and stay up with him in the middle of the night. whether i went to bed yet or not or if ive slept at all that week or not. no questions asked i always let him sleep. well not anymore hahahahaa. its great. i wake his ass up and make him stay up. he bitches and for once I DONT CARE!! i simply say...welcome to my world for the last nine months on top of working my ass off and for the last 2 add allll the school work i have and busting my ass at my job. i feel NO sympathy for him. oh boo hoo you have to be a fucking parent.
i tell him the other day just to give him a heads up, that in june when liam gets recertified for medicaid that they will make sure hes paying child support since we arent going to be living together and he goes....other than being his father, what ties do i have to him? HAHAHAHAHAHA are you serious??!!! right there idiot! YOURE HIS FATHER!!! hes like well im not on the birth certificate and he doesnt have my last name. i said where the hell were you when we were filling out all the birth certificate paperwork? remember signing allll that stuff and me joking around saying if you take off again youre now legally responsible for him??? but yea liam has my last name because we were never married, you took off for almost four months because i wouldnt have an abortion and youve just realized 3 months ago you had a son....really? he is going to have your last name???? what a fucking jack ass this kid is....talk about fucking ridiculous.
i have been being as nice as possible to keep peace until hes gone...well not that im gonna be a raging bitch when hes gone we still have to be parents to liam...but i realized how much LESS stressed out i am now that i dont make decisions based on his needs and how much he'll bitch that i dont consider him because i bought vanilla scented air wick refills instead of something he likes....and add a whiny 5yr old moan to that and you have the man child i dated for almost two years....hahahha wow. i actually like waking up now a days. its great. if he does give me attitude or start bitching at me i just smile and walk away hahaha. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh i shoulda left him sooooooo long ago!!!!!! i cant wait to paint my bedroom and get all the new bedroom furniture im going to get and i can buy the bedding i want instead of BROWN....BROWN EVERYTHING!!!!! I WILL ONLY USE BROWN IF IT REALLY LOOKS GOOD WITH SOMETHING FROM NOW ON OTHERWISE I HATTTTTEEEE BROWN!!!! its already to starting to be COLOR everywhere and he made a comment about it the other day and i said why do you care youre crashing on my couch and will be gone in about a month....hahahahaha i love this!
afrim is in town this weekend.....i havent seen him since october the last time he was here....its been almost two years since we broke up and the fact that hes still such a huge part of my life....still here trying...ive been nothing but hard as fuck on him. i kind of feel bad for him, ive been a straight up fucking bitch and hes still here telling me he wants to marry me and take care of me...that he fucked up beyond belief...again im still weary of the situation...as i should be. but itll be wierd to see him this weekend....i dont know how i feel about it...oh well. we will see its gonna be in just a couple hours sooooo...ok gotta eat before class.
i tell him the other day just to give him a heads up, that in june when liam gets recertified for medicaid that they will make sure hes paying child support since we arent going to be living together and he goes....other than being his father, what ties do i have to him? HAHAHAHAHAHA are you serious??!!! right there idiot! YOURE HIS FATHER!!! hes like well im not on the birth certificate and he doesnt have my last name. i said where the hell were you when we were filling out all the birth certificate paperwork? remember signing allll that stuff and me joking around saying if you take off again youre now legally responsible for him??? but yea liam has my last name because we were never married, you took off for almost four months because i wouldnt have an abortion and youve just realized 3 months ago you had a son....really? he is going to have your last name???? what a fucking jack ass this kid is....talk about fucking ridiculous.
i have been being as nice as possible to keep peace until hes gone...well not that im gonna be a raging bitch when hes gone we still have to be parents to liam...but i realized how much LESS stressed out i am now that i dont make decisions based on his needs and how much he'll bitch that i dont consider him because i bought vanilla scented air wick refills instead of something he likes....and add a whiny 5yr old moan to that and you have the man child i dated for almost two years....hahahha wow. i actually like waking up now a days. its great. if he does give me attitude or start bitching at me i just smile and walk away hahaha. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh i shoulda left him sooooooo long ago!!!!!! i cant wait to paint my bedroom and get all the new bedroom furniture im going to get and i can buy the bedding i want instead of BROWN....BROWN EVERYTHING!!!!! I WILL ONLY USE BROWN IF IT REALLY LOOKS GOOD WITH SOMETHING FROM NOW ON OTHERWISE I HATTTTTEEEE BROWN!!!! its already to starting to be COLOR everywhere and he made a comment about it the other day and i said why do you care youre crashing on my couch and will be gone in about a month....hahahahaha i love this!
afrim is in town this weekend.....i havent seen him since october the last time he was here....its been almost two years since we broke up and the fact that hes still such a huge part of my life....still here trying...ive been nothing but hard as fuck on him. i kind of feel bad for him, ive been a straight up fucking bitch and hes still here telling me he wants to marry me and take care of me...that he fucked up beyond belief...again im still weary of the situation...as i should be. but itll be wierd to see him this weekend....i dont know how i feel about it...oh well. we will see its gonna be in just a couple hours sooooo...ok gotta eat before class.