Today was a wonderful day!
Today I did everything I've wanted to do for a really long time.
I cashed my pay check... which, even though is a weekly ritual, I still enjoy the hours drive to the bank, in which I sit back, in the vehicle of choice, and think about all the things going on in my life.
Today I also went and visited the new H&M and I must admit... it was my favorite store in Germany, and it's my favorite store here. I'm super stoked about it opening... and you better believe that is my 2nd favorite store on EARTH!
I went to JoAnn Fabrics today, to start picking up all the stuff I'll need to make my new scrapbook and let me tell you... I'm super duper excited. I've wanted to make a book from Germany for so long and never had the funds.. but working as much as I do now... I'm hoping I'll be able to pick up stuff little by little and that by the end of summer it should be almost done! Yay!
Other than that and all the thinking I've done today, I didn't do much, I pretty much sat around, was lazy, played with my bellybutton ring, read a book and chatted with dad. Sounds fun huh?
Oh and to all of you who thought I'd be a chicken shit and not get my bellybutton pierced... screw you all. It's done, it doesn't really hurt anymore... and I'm excited that by my birthday I'll be able to change the ring. I play with it a lot... but it's ok... because it's cute!
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Other than that, life is pretty boring. But I did do a lot of thinking today. Sometimes I just get in these moods where I have to think about where I am in my life, and where I'd like to be in a year or two. I think about the people I hang out with, the people I used to hang out with, and the people I miss being around, and I realize that I'm not necessarily as great of a friend as I thought I was. I mean, yeah, 9 times out of 10 I'm there for you if you need something, at the drop of a hat, I do my best. But I realize now that sometimes I ignore people when they need me, or that I'm just not there, but I expect people to be there when I need them. Like when I got my bellybutton pierced... I asked like 5 people to come with me. But no one called back like they said they were going to, or they just didn't/couldn't go. Only one person went with me, which, granted is fine, but it would have been nice to know that you didnt want to or couldn't go. But hey... that's not a big deal right. Everyone seems to be going their own way. I mean, it's funny, I was thinking about all the friends I used to have at Fraser, and realize that if I had to pick any of them to hang out with, I would probably pick 1 maybe 2 people. It just seems that we've all gone our own seperate ways. And with all of them living so close together, and me living so far away, and working as much as I do, hanging out really isn't much of an option I guess. But then after thinking about Fraser people, I thought about what I do with my life. I mean, sure, I go to work and I work between 35 and 60 hours a week, which granted is a lot, and I hang out with Kasey, but other than that and dance, I don't really do much. I see Eric every now and again, and Arne leaves for Germany in a few weeks, and other than that? There isn't much. I don't talk to much of my family, I'm trying to save all the money I can so that I can pay for next semister at Macomb, and so that I can move out next summer, but only making $7.50 an hour doesn't get you very far does it? I really wish I could get a good secretarial job somewhere, I mean, I work a lot with computers, and I know how to answer phones. But who knows. I just changed my major in my head so I guess we'll have to wait and see. I'm going to go talk to an advisor next week I think. I'm no longer going to go to school for Secondary German Education, but to major both in German and in Business. It's going to be rough, and I'm definately in for the long hall, but I can do it if I put my mind to it. And then in the midst of all my driving and places I had to be, with things I had to do, and the music blairing in the car, I started to think about boys. Fantastic topic huh? I thought about who everyone think's is "perfect" for me, and realized that the only person who knew who was perfect for me, was me. The way people come and go out of my life, well, it makes it hard to do anything, much less date. I mean, I kind of have feelings for someone, I think, but they live kind of far away and go to school on the other side of the state, and I don't know. I don't see him much, but every time I do I get super excited and it makes me feel like a little school girl. Ha... what a way to put things. Oh well.... Life's a big roller coaster, and I just got on the ride, so let's see just where this coaster will go, shall we?
Anyway... to anyone who actually read this whole thing, I give you props. It's not exactly easy to read, much less understand the thoughts that go through my mind. But now unfortunately it's time for bed. Some of us have to be at work at 8am.
I cashed my pay check... which, even though is a weekly ritual, I still enjoy the hours drive to the bank, in which I sit back, in the vehicle of choice, and think about all the things going on in my life.
Today I also went and visited the new H&M and I must admit... it was my favorite store in Germany, and it's my favorite store here. I'm super stoked about it opening... and you better believe that is my 2nd favorite store on EARTH!
I went to JoAnn Fabrics today, to start picking up all the stuff I'll need to make my new scrapbook and let me tell you... I'm super duper excited. I've wanted to make a book from Germany for so long and never had the funds.. but working as much as I do now... I'm hoping I'll be able to pick up stuff little by little and that by the end of summer it should be almost done! Yay!
Other than that and all the thinking I've done today, I didn't do much, I pretty much sat around, was lazy, played with my bellybutton ring, read a book and chatted with dad. Sounds fun huh?
Oh and to all of you who thought I'd be a chicken shit and not get my bellybutton pierced... screw you all. It's done, it doesn't really hurt anymore... and I'm excited that by my birthday I'll be able to change the ring. I play with it a lot... but it's ok... because it's cute!
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Other than that, life is pretty boring. But I did do a lot of thinking today. Sometimes I just get in these moods where I have to think about where I am in my life, and where I'd like to be in a year or two. I think about the people I hang out with, the people I used to hang out with, and the people I miss being around, and I realize that I'm not necessarily as great of a friend as I thought I was. I mean, yeah, 9 times out of 10 I'm there for you if you need something, at the drop of a hat, I do my best. But I realize now that sometimes I ignore people when they need me, or that I'm just not there, but I expect people to be there when I need them. Like when I got my bellybutton pierced... I asked like 5 people to come with me. But no one called back like they said they were going to, or they just didn't/couldn't go. Only one person went with me, which, granted is fine, but it would have been nice to know that you didnt want to or couldn't go. But hey... that's not a big deal right. Everyone seems to be going their own way. I mean, it's funny, I was thinking about all the friends I used to have at Fraser, and realize that if I had to pick any of them to hang out with, I would probably pick 1 maybe 2 people. It just seems that we've all gone our own seperate ways. And with all of them living so close together, and me living so far away, and working as much as I do, hanging out really isn't much of an option I guess. But then after thinking about Fraser people, I thought about what I do with my life. I mean, sure, I go to work and I work between 35 and 60 hours a week, which granted is a lot, and I hang out with Kasey, but other than that and dance, I don't really do much. I see Eric every now and again, and Arne leaves for Germany in a few weeks, and other than that? There isn't much. I don't talk to much of my family, I'm trying to save all the money I can so that I can pay for next semister at Macomb, and so that I can move out next summer, but only making $7.50 an hour doesn't get you very far does it? I really wish I could get a good secretarial job somewhere, I mean, I work a lot with computers, and I know how to answer phones. But who knows. I just changed my major in my head so I guess we'll have to wait and see. I'm going to go talk to an advisor next week I think. I'm no longer going to go to school for Secondary German Education, but to major both in German and in Business. It's going to be rough, and I'm definately in for the long hall, but I can do it if I put my mind to it. And then in the midst of all my driving and places I had to be, with things I had to do, and the music blairing in the car, I started to think about boys. Fantastic topic huh? I thought about who everyone think's is "perfect" for me, and realized that the only person who knew who was perfect for me, was me. The way people come and go out of my life, well, it makes it hard to do anything, much less date. I mean, I kind of have feelings for someone, I think, but they live kind of far away and go to school on the other side of the state, and I don't know. I don't see him much, but every time I do I get super excited and it makes me feel like a little school girl. Ha... what a way to put things. Oh well.... Life's a big roller coaster, and I just got on the ride, so let's see just where this coaster will go, shall we?
Anyway... to anyone who actually read this whole thing, I give you props. It's not exactly easy to read, much less understand the thoughts that go through my mind. But now unfortunately it's time for bed. Some of us have to be at work at 8am.