It seems I have an artery pressing on a vein in my belly (MRI/MRA results) and it is causing some difficulty in circulation. Ugh. This may or may not be contributing to the issue of my leg taking so long to heal (in addition to the scars left by the blood clots). The last ditch solution would be a stent, but that is way far and long from now ( Read more... )

Yesterday's doc appointment was for actual therapy of the psychological kind, which I have been lacking for several years now, so yeah, long overdue ( Read more... )

someone said to me tonight that I am not evil and have never done anything evil and while I have been victimized by evil I have done nothing that constitutes evil, I am paraphrasing ( Read more... )

I dreamed I was on vacation in N’Awlins and I was visiting all my favourite places and a few new ones where I have never been. I found myself at a fancy dinner dance in a place I have never been and a woman showed up at my table like she knew me and I knew she was a relative even though I have never met her. (she was tall and thin and a redhead ( Read more... )

So many nightmares last night, like can we get every ugly scenario in one night as fast as possible? Gah ( Read more... )

One of the side effects of the CPAP machine plus oxygen at night is that I sleep very deeply and as a result I dream very vividly. I am not sure yet if this is a good thing and today I am leaning toward not good and here is why ( Read more... )

This is my Year of Committing Art, incorporating art and healing into my life as fast as I can because I need it, like yesterday. I am doing two projects, one is with a group online where we are all making journals with prompts for writing and arting and then sharing them, the other is with my local friend MB and we are reading and doing the tasks ( Read more... )

no, I haven't been journaling and I said I would so I suck. It has been a difficult and painful Winter, pain making me take to my bed for a week, snow keeping me housebound for another week, cabin fever setting in and it isn't even March yet, holy hells is it over yet ( Read more... )

"Oh, I was going to get those records requests done last week." Says the VocRehab rep. What? really? And then had me go over half the stuff we covered last week. Were you even listening? This is why I never ask for help people! Fuck! Thank you for triggering several of my depression issues, I want a nap and a lot of chocolate now, or a ( Read more... )

My sleep patterns are all kerfluckled right now which is likely not helping me much, and last night I had the weirdest damn dream. In technicolour no less ( Read more... )