Diet and Fitness: Journal > Day 31
Breakfast: 1 large hard boiled egg. 1 thin slice of whole wheat bread with a very thin spread of natural jelly. A sip of 100% orange juice. Water.
Lunch: Natural peanut butter and jelly sandwich on two slices of whole wheat bread. 1 large banana. Water.
Dinner: 4 oz organic blueberry yogurt (yo-baby), 1 oz raisins, 1 large orange, 6 raw almonds, and 1/4 small banana. Water.
Exercise: Some walking (maybe 15 mins brisk walking and 25 mins walking at a pretty slow pace)
Diary: I felt pretty down today because my best friend pulled a stunt that, quite frankly, I thought she'd been over years ago. Apparently not. She used to have a pretty crappy habit of putting me down in front of other people, but she'd stopped, hence the reason why we became best friends at all. So when she did just that in a video conversation we were having last night (with her crush and one of her other friends in attendance), I was completely thrown off. And hurt. And the thing is, nothing she said was a lie, but they were all things she knows I feel discomfited about-- such as my weight and level of education-- and I just don't understand why she'd so blatantly bring those topics up unnecessarily in front of other people. I got the impression that she probably just wanted to make herself look better or something, but fuck, I thought we'd been through this shit already. And I've changed a lot over the years, and confronting people isn't as easy as it used to be. I'm unsure whether or not to discuss this with her at all (as I feel admitting to her just how embarrassed I was about said things would make me feel vulnerable), or to just let it go. It's really freaking bothering me, though, and I hate that I've become that type of person.
If anyone has ever read Emily Griffin's Something Borrowed, I feel helluva lot like Rachel right now. Only a million times less successful. :(
Ugh. Best friends are supposed to make you feel better, not make you feel like shit. I'm amazed I managed to eat well today when I'd wanted nothing more to eat my troubles away with some chocolate.
DAILY MOTIVATION:
Lunch: Natural peanut butter and jelly sandwich on two slices of whole wheat bread. 1 large banana. Water.
Dinner: 4 oz organic blueberry yogurt (yo-baby), 1 oz raisins, 1 large orange, 6 raw almonds, and 1/4 small banana. Water.
Exercise: Some walking (maybe 15 mins brisk walking and 25 mins walking at a pretty slow pace)
Diary: I felt pretty down today because my best friend pulled a stunt that, quite frankly, I thought she'd been over years ago. Apparently not. She used to have a pretty crappy habit of putting me down in front of other people, but she'd stopped, hence the reason why we became best friends at all. So when she did just that in a video conversation we were having last night (with her crush and one of her other friends in attendance), I was completely thrown off. And hurt. And the thing is, nothing she said was a lie, but they were all things she knows I feel discomfited about-- such as my weight and level of education-- and I just don't understand why she'd so blatantly bring those topics up unnecessarily in front of other people. I got the impression that she probably just wanted to make herself look better or something, but fuck, I thought we'd been through this shit already. And I've changed a lot over the years, and confronting people isn't as easy as it used to be. I'm unsure whether or not to discuss this with her at all (as I feel admitting to her just how embarrassed I was about said things would make me feel vulnerable), or to just let it go. It's really freaking bothering me, though, and I hate that I've become that type of person.
If anyone has ever read Emily Griffin's Something Borrowed, I feel helluva lot like Rachel right now. Only a million times less successful. :(
Ugh. Best friends are supposed to make you feel better, not make you feel like shit. I'm amazed I managed to eat well today when I'd wanted nothing more to eat my troubles away with some chocolate.
DAILY MOTIVATION: