I know. I'm a sap for believing she's 100% sincere and honest after the last few years, but... maybe it's because I want to believe ( Read more... )

Well, sonicwind, the kid me has gotten all his back to school shopping done, plus I used a little of the cash I had on hand to get him a few things of his own as well. Hopefully, he won't have any problems from here on out...

Aside from that... yeah, for those who haven't guessed, I'm in sonicwind's world at the moment - World A, as the younger me calls it. It's ( Read more... )

Man. Fuck you, Silver, for being right. My head has been killing me all day, and no amount of hangover cure is fixing it. Nh. I'm glad people are used to my typical drunken semi-trolling antics online, or else I'd have even more to be embarassed about this time. seriously, what the hell ( Read more... )

Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go...
This is it. I've been up all night, startlingly lucid. I've spent the past five hours staring at my hands, imagining the blood that must already be on them. I don't know if that means I'm cured of my nutso streak or not, but... heh.... man, I really fucked ( Read more... )

I've... been doing a lot of thinking these past few days, especially after my discussion with lilbluehedgie earlier today. I've gotten too close to crossing the edge, even with Saffron's help in stabilizing me. This.. this has almost consumed me. I need to back away before I end up doing something that could ruin everything ( Read more... )

Just updating again - Saffron's allowed me use of the computer long enough to do that at least.

I try telling him that this is a bad idea, that all it does is give any enemies a view into his weaknesses. -Lt. Saunders

Obviously, she's here at the moment, and to be honest, everyone was right. I needed this bad. I'm still frazzled, and I wonder if ( Read more... )

Can't get to sleep. This is the second or third night in a row I haven't been able to; yesterday, it was because it was starting to sink in exactly how much Cream was hiding from me. Tonight... well, I'm not sure. Part of me knows this is a doomed effort. That it might just be easier if I got everything out in the open with Cream, let her go her ( Read more... )

Well. This is my first post here.... I'm still kind of irritated ( Read more... )