I know I never post
But this is the only safe place for me to do so, today. I hate hate hate hate hate weeks of good things that culminate in a mostly good/great night that ends in one of the worst disappointments I have felt in a VERY long time. I am not an outwardly emotional person, so I can usually remember the times when I am VERY sad or angry or disappointed and THIS is one of them. :-( The worst part is that I am going to keep putting myself in the position of being disappointed over and over again and I feel like he does not even realize the pain I am in right now, nor can I tell him without it being weird.