I wish I wasn't ugly. :(

Man, do I need some plastic surgery. Only 28, and I need to fix just about everything. I'm thin, but apparently my genetics demanded a double chin (on top of a cleft chin), a messed up abdomen, fat thighs, a sagging butt, lots of cellulite, thin lips, a giant nose, giant pores, and a giant forehead ( Read more... )

Dreams broken;
Replaced by those anew.
Never really reaching me;
Reaching out for you.

Where is that lost part of me?
I left her somewhere far.
Where are all my memories?
I block them in this war.

All the love I have to give,
Wrenching life, as I live.
Tomorrow's sorrow kisses me;
A sorry friend who's meant to be.

You know what hurts? When someone has the power to destroy you, but you don't have the power to make even a tiny scratch on them.

There is only one thing about myself that I am 100% confident of - if there was an award given for the lowest self-esteem, I would win the #1 prize.

I started treatment on antidepressant and antianxiety medications on Monday night... I hope that it helps. Those meds helped last time I was treated, which was 2 years ago (at least). If nothing else, at least it gives me a little hope, a little light at the end of the tunnel.

Here's lookin' at you.