Captain's Log: Stardate - 2002522 Mark 2240
This has been one of those days...the kind that makes you scratch your head and say "What the Fsck?" I'll elaborate momentarily...
Right now, I'm sitting at my desk here in Midtown Manhattan, 450 feet above and 300 feet north of Bryant Park, where Magician David Blaine is preparing to jump from the tower that he's been perched on for the last several days. He's reportedly being paid the tidy sum of $2 million dollars to fling himself off this tower in front of thousands of people in Bryant Park, and countless Millions on TV around the country. My immediate question to myself is Why? Not "Why is he doing such a stunt tonight", or "Why is he getting paid millions for sitting on his ass, having beautiful women flash their breasts at him as they watch him from below with lust-crazed eyes", but more along the lines of "Why didn't I practice more with that damned Magic kit I got when I was 6! That could be me up there making all that dough and having beautiful women throw themselves at me!!! WTF!?!"
Also on the WTF list for tonight...
For the last year now, my wife has refused my love, kept me at a distance, rejected me at every turn...Today, I get home after a 23 hour day of work and Cisco classes, and the moment I walk in the door, she drags me off to our bedroom and makes love to me for the first time in almost 8 months...Wait...it gets better...so I fall asleep for my powernap before work, and as I'm ready to leave, she drags me into the bathroom, rips my clothes off and has her way with me once again - on the vanity, in the shower...doing thing to me she hasn't done in over 7 years of Marriage. And the only thing I can think of during all this is "WHY?"
"Why the sudden change? Why now? I don't think anything has changed between us in the last 48 hours...what the fsck is happening here?"
Maybe I'm wrong for thinking like this, and I should appreciate the fact that whatever has been bothering her for the last 6 years has finally gone away, but I can't help thinking there's some ulterior motive behind the sudden affection, you know? People don't just suddenly turn on a dime like this without something on their minds, or some agenda to follow. Maybe it's because I'm trying to find jobs outside of NYC...WAY outside NYC, like in Texas, Arizona, North Carolina, Ohio, Illinois, and the San Francisco Bay area. Maybe it's because that after all the pain, all the heartache and anguish, I'm ready to move on, ready to finally say "Enough's enough", or, in homage to my favorite pipe-tooting, Spinach-eating cartoon sailor, "I's hads alls I can stands, I can't stands no more!".
Or maybe she suspects that the reason I'm smiling lately isn't because I'm graduating in three weeks, but that there might be something on my mind...thoughts I've never contemplated seriously before until recently...
I just don't know what to do.
/shakes his head in confusion...
Right now, I'm sitting at my desk here in Midtown Manhattan, 450 feet above and 300 feet north of Bryant Park, where Magician David Blaine is preparing to jump from the tower that he's been perched on for the last several days. He's reportedly being paid the tidy sum of $2 million dollars to fling himself off this tower in front of thousands of people in Bryant Park, and countless Millions on TV around the country. My immediate question to myself is Why? Not "Why is he doing such a stunt tonight", or "Why is he getting paid millions for sitting on his ass, having beautiful women flash their breasts at him as they watch him from below with lust-crazed eyes", but more along the lines of "Why didn't I practice more with that damned Magic kit I got when I was 6! That could be me up there making all that dough and having beautiful women throw themselves at me!!! WTF!?!"
Also on the WTF list for tonight...
For the last year now, my wife has refused my love, kept me at a distance, rejected me at every turn...Today, I get home after a 23 hour day of work and Cisco classes, and the moment I walk in the door, she drags me off to our bedroom and makes love to me for the first time in almost 8 months...Wait...it gets better...so I fall asleep for my powernap before work, and as I'm ready to leave, she drags me into the bathroom, rips my clothes off and has her way with me once again - on the vanity, in the shower...doing thing to me she hasn't done in over 7 years of Marriage. And the only thing I can think of during all this is "WHY?"
"Why the sudden change? Why now? I don't think anything has changed between us in the last 48 hours...what the fsck is happening here?"
Maybe I'm wrong for thinking like this, and I should appreciate the fact that whatever has been bothering her for the last 6 years has finally gone away, but I can't help thinking there's some ulterior motive behind the sudden affection, you know? People don't just suddenly turn on a dime like this without something on their minds, or some agenda to follow. Maybe it's because I'm trying to find jobs outside of NYC...WAY outside NYC, like in Texas, Arizona, North Carolina, Ohio, Illinois, and the San Francisco Bay area. Maybe it's because that after all the pain, all the heartache and anguish, I'm ready to move on, ready to finally say "Enough's enough", or, in homage to my favorite pipe-tooting, Spinach-eating cartoon sailor, "I's hads alls I can stands, I can't stands no more!".
Or maybe she suspects that the reason I'm smiling lately isn't because I'm graduating in three weeks, but that there might be something on my mind...thoughts I've never contemplated seriously before until recently...
I just don't know what to do.
/shakes his head in confusion...