Captain's Log - Stardate: 2002522 mark 0052
/sighs
I am truly and thoroughly tired today. Totally tired. Confused. lost. Spiritually overdrawn, Emotionally bankrupt. I feel cold throughout, like I'm dead, and someone forgot to tell my heart to stop beating, or it just won't listen because it's stubborn and refuses to do anything it's told to do anyway. it's a thoroughly undescribable feeling, yet aside from the frustration that has permeated every cell...I can't describe it.
A very dear friend told me that I was feeling "Heartsick"...that I was feeling confused and alone, like my life was being pulled in a million different directions like a piece of taffy at a county fair, and that I felt helpless and alone. Well...upon further reflection, she's probably right again as usual. I wish I could tell you all about her...she's probably the single most special person I have ever met in this or any other galaxy, even though she might not think she is at times. She tells me that sometimes she gets to feeling that way, but that she thinks of all the people who matter most to her, and it helps her break through to better times. Though the only way I know to combat fatigue this bad is 96 hours of sleep straight...
/sighs again
Well...I managed to get about 4 hours sleep tonight, shivering in my office in my chair. Now my back hurts. I just can't win.
I am truly and thoroughly tired today. Totally tired. Confused. lost. Spiritually overdrawn, Emotionally bankrupt. I feel cold throughout, like I'm dead, and someone forgot to tell my heart to stop beating, or it just won't listen because it's stubborn and refuses to do anything it's told to do anyway. it's a thoroughly undescribable feeling, yet aside from the frustration that has permeated every cell...I can't describe it.
A very dear friend told me that I was feeling "Heartsick"...that I was feeling confused and alone, like my life was being pulled in a million different directions like a piece of taffy at a county fair, and that I felt helpless and alone. Well...upon further reflection, she's probably right again as usual. I wish I could tell you all about her...she's probably the single most special person I have ever met in this or any other galaxy, even though she might not think she is at times. She tells me that sometimes she gets to feeling that way, but that she thinks of all the people who matter most to her, and it helps her break through to better times. Though the only way I know to combat fatigue this bad is 96 hours of sleep straight...
/sighs again
Well...I managed to get about 4 hours sleep tonight, shivering in my office in my chair. Now my back hurts. I just can't win.