Hearts break, hearts mend, Love still hurts
* Slipped in between the pages*
I had thought, that I knew my place, before my marque was made. That i knew my plan. She had warned me, that when ti came time, when I had my marque that I would hit a point where I stood, that I had to be careful lest I wallow and stagnate.
I have stopped. unsure and doubting. My life of late has settled. I have found an ease in my heart. It grew, room for more.
and yet I am waiting for the other shoe to drop. Waiting for the hammer to stop me. There cannot be all this good with something bad. Peter had not asked me to be second as everyone in the house was sure he would. Gautier advises that it may be because I have not made my mind up to remain or not. I am worried that it might be age. When I gain the courage, I will ask.
The D'aiglemort Comte is back. Gallard. I imagined, for a moment, it was His fingers tracing the petals. But it wasn't. None of it is the same, but I love him as I love the family. I pray that he will meet with the Duc, discuss Lorraine. Salvation of the city lies in him, I am certain, and not in the beast of a man who reigns there. Do I welcome him because he reminds me of Marius? Or do I welcome him because I love all of the family with my heart?
He asked me, to go away, to take up residence near him but I refused. I cannot. What I spoke to the Camellia is true, My house, my house is first. He asked in jest, for eternity knowing It urned down even my Duc's offer of such. I replied that I could give him two days and make it feel as such.
What is it with me and D'Aiglemorts.
I had thought, that I knew my place, before my marque was made. That i knew my plan. She had warned me, that when ti came time, when I had my marque that I would hit a point where I stood, that I had to be careful lest I wallow and stagnate.
I have stopped. unsure and doubting. My life of late has settled. I have found an ease in my heart. It grew, room for more.
and yet I am waiting for the other shoe to drop. Waiting for the hammer to stop me. There cannot be all this good with something bad. Peter had not asked me to be second as everyone in the house was sure he would. Gautier advises that it may be because I have not made my mind up to remain or not. I am worried that it might be age. When I gain the courage, I will ask.
The D'aiglemort Comte is back. Gallard. I imagined, for a moment, it was His fingers tracing the petals. But it wasn't. None of it is the same, but I love him as I love the family. I pray that he will meet with the Duc, discuss Lorraine. Salvation of the city lies in him, I am certain, and not in the beast of a man who reigns there. Do I welcome him because he reminds me of Marius? Or do I welcome him because I love all of the family with my heart?
He asked me, to go away, to take up residence near him but I refused. I cannot. What I spoke to the Camellia is true, My house, my house is first. He asked in jest, for eternity knowing It urned down even my Duc's offer of such. I replied that I could give him two days and make it feel as such.
What is it with me and D'Aiglemorts.