I...
*sigh*
Here we go.
Okay. I'd like to preface this entry by saying that before all the shit in "I Do" happened, I had resigned myself to the fact that Kurt and Adam were going to enter into some kind of romantic relationship. I had made peace with this to the point where I was actually starting to look forward to it, with the hopes that this new relationship for Kurt would only prove to him that Blaine is the one he wants. It also helped that I immediately liked Adam and thought Adam's Apples was hilarious and awesome for Kurt.
But then "I Do" happened, before anything with Kurt and Adam took place. I won't reiterate my feelings on that ep, since you all know how I took it :P, but since then, I have really been effed up with my feelings towards Kurt.
Come What May was marvelous. I loved it from start to finish, up to and including seeing tears in Kurt's eyes. But everything else with Kurt before or after? No. Just no, Kurt.
First, Kurt gives Santana the shut up before I kill you face when she hints that Kurt bonked Blaine's brains out on Valentine's Day. Then he lies (badly, of course...thankfully) about his contacts bothering him after CWM, and he again gives Santana the death glare when she mentions that he and Blaine had wanted to sing that song at their wedding.
You know, all that I can actually deal with. Boy's in serious denial - it's almost funny. I'm kinda ticked that he tried shutting her up about him having sex with Blaine, because it made it seem like it was a mistake, or a random hookup, and certainly not something that he wanted Adam to know about. Which, hey...it was. On both counts. And what about Adam? That made me uncomfortable, because it made it seem like Kurt was cheating on him. Last time I checked, Kurt wasn't a cheater. But hey, Kurt also didn't randomly hook up last time I checked either, so...
And then later? When Adam steps up and does the adult thing by asking Kurt about his feelings for Blaine and Kurt replies, "I desperately want to be over him," like, ARE YOU F*CKING KIDDING ME, GLEE?!
Ok, I speak as a person who has also once said, "I desperately want to be over him," while still loving someone and knowing that it was the correct choice for my situation. But the difference between me and Kurt here is: the guy I was trying to get over was a DOUCHEBAG. BLAINE IS NOT A DOUCHEBAG.
Clearly, Come What May has shown us Kurt's true feelings - it was his damn dream, after all. But why on Earth is he actively trying to get over someone he just daydreamed LIKE THAT about?!
I don't get Kurt at all right now, and I'm seriously disliking him at the moment. Which makes me sad, you know, because Kurt was always one of my favorites right from day one. But right now he's just coming off as bitchy and cold to me. Why can't he 'fess up to his true feelings? Why has he and Blaine never talked things out? Why can't Blaine call him and be like, "Yo, you screwed up, too"? Blaine didn't walk out of the house one morning thinking, "Hey, lemme see how much I can screw my relationship with Kurt up today" - there were underlying reasons that have never been addressed onscreen between the two of them.
And oh yes, if Kurt's forgiven Blaine, and still loves him, then I say again: why is he trying to "get over" him?
Poor Adam. Because he knows that Kurt still loves Blaine. Which automatically makes him the rebound guy, no matter what Kurt says. If you're dating someone who's still in love with someone else, you ARE the rebound. Sorry Charlie.
Klaine used to be so perfect on this show. What happened? What happened to my beloved, honest, sweet Kurt?
I'm really sick of getting the outer shell of the stories on Glee. I want some depth, dammit. Perhaps you could spend less time on Marley's stupidly exhausting triangle (just pick Ryder already, goddammit) and less on Rachel's baby drama and her "OMG I'm a New Yorker now" attitude/life, and we'd have a better show.
Also, I hate the "OMG I'm a New Yorker now" stereotype they have going on that show. Rachel moved to NYC and basically became Lea Michele. Like...no. Do they have any idea how diverse NYC really is? It's not just a city full of Lea Micheles. There's all types, sizes, colors, languages, and dress codes. I know, because I fricken lived there. I saw more people dressed like a slob (like me) than I did people bouncing around the city in stilettos and $4000 coats. Ugh, please. Gettin' real tired of your shit, Glee.
So I have now resigned myself to something else: Klaine is most likely NOT getting back together this season. I thought there was hope for a reunion, but nope. The hope stops now. Also, I'm probably just going to be disappointed in the show until then, especially if Kurt keeps up with this stupidity. I don't know what else to do besides just preparing for a shitshow every time I watch.
~G
PS - I'm loving the crap out of Santana right now. She's awesome.