Dec 27, 2008 13:06
nearly time to go to work, and i'm feeling aprehensive, fearful. there's going to be lots of people, and i really don't want to deal with people, people scare me, and they're going to be everywhere, looking at me with digust and hostility in their eyes. i'm not sure i can do this, surround myself with the crowds of angry people. but i have to, i need to and earn money. time to put on my mask, and pretend that i'm happy with myself.
if i manage it all the way through then i'll come home and she'll be there scared of me. maybe i just shouldn't come back.
"I hate everyone equally
You can't tear that out of me
No segregation -separation
Just me in my world of enemies
I never said I wanted to be God's disciple"