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i couldn't do it, i got to the front of the shopping centre and just stood by a pillar, frozen to the floor, barely able to breathe, people everywhere, i had to run and hide, to get away, there's too many people out there, i don't feel safe. i'm disgusting, i shouldn't be here.
i want to punish myself, but i suspect it wouldn't help, i can't deviate from my normal behaviour more than i already have, it'll just frighten her more?
what am i going to do? hide away until i can face the world again.
i want to punish myself, but i suspect it wouldn't help, i can't deviate from my normal behaviour more than i already have, it'll just frighten her more?
what am i going to do? hide away until i can face the world again.