I get to have a lovely weekend!! :-)
I get to have my lovely weekend because I have three days off in a row. :-) I'm not scheduled for another day, so yay!! It shall be a lovely ending to my weekend by us all going to the Renaissance Festival in Sterling, New York. It's about an hour and a half drive from where I live. There is so much that I want to do there. We better be getting up early and staying there late. It shall be a wonderful day, or I will be mad as hell.
Got into a fight with my mom yesterday as she was taking me to work. I was trying to explain that I might be working another day and she kept interupting me. So I yelled at her and we got into a fight. Then she said to me: "Will you do me one favor and be just a little more meaner to me" And people wonder why I hate my mother. I know that I shouldn't because she is the only parent that I have but I hold a deep grudge against her. I could actually feel my heart growing hard against her because she was trying to get me to feel guilty. I was suppose to go to the Renaissance Festival with her last year but neither of us could get the day off so we didn't go. She never told me that we should do it this year or told me that I couldn't go with someone else. And now that I have plans to go there she is trying to make me feel guilty about it. Well it's not going to work. She can't do this to me any more. I was so close to telling her that she would never have to worry about me again. That I would find my own way to work and never come over to her house again. This is how much she makes me mad. I don't want to be around her any more. I don't want to be near her any more. I would give up seeing my brothers and my pets just to get away from everything that she puts me through. I hate it!!! I hate every minute of it!!! I want away from it. I want it so much. I got to work yesterday and one of the older woman that I worked with asked me what was wrong and I just started crying. I can't take it any more. I can't do it any more. I just want it to stop. I want to not have to deal with it ever again. I feel as if a weight has been put onto my back and I can't throw it off. That's what I felt as I walked up the stairs. Maybe I am just getting too stressed. I don't know what it is but I hate it.
I still have to get my stuff sent to me from Florida. I think that I have to wire money to them. I was told what I have to do. I juist have to do it now. I have to do it soon though because they all leave Florida in 1 month and 12 days.
I need school to stop playing games with me. This is why I hate school. They need to stop being fucking asses and help me with this shit. This is why I am trying to transfer. I need to hear from SU soon though. I am going to school next semester whether they want me to or not.
Everything is getting to me and overwhelming me. I'm worrying about all the aforementioned things and more. I have my doctors appointment for my migraines in 5 days. Everything is driving me crazy. No wonder that I am having severe migraines.
Hopefully I will be getting paid with a check this week. Actually two checks. Then I can pay off some more things. I was told that I should be getting both of them this week. Tomorrow actually.
I need new reading material. All I have left are my books by Tolkien and I know that they aren't going to last me long with the speed that I am reading them at. Don't get me wrong, I love these books. I'm just reading them extremely fast.
I'm being harassed by a fly. It follows me everywhere and keeps attacking me. I have tried to kill it on numerous occasions but I can never seem to get the job done. Maybe it's my dad. Like the white butterflys being my grandma. Yeah, I'm weird like that. Leave me alone.
I live with a sucidal dog. He keeps trying to walk in the road but only when cars are coming. Either he's sucidal or he's stupid. I don't know which one it is but it is one or the other.
This post was longer than expected. Wow! I'm so not putting this under a cut. So :-P to you all.
You know that I love you guys. But I say that to you all just to remind you that I care. :-)
~ Jess
Got into a fight with my mom yesterday as she was taking me to work. I was trying to explain that I might be working another day and she kept interupting me. So I yelled at her and we got into a fight. Then she said to me: "Will you do me one favor and be just a little more meaner to me" And people wonder why I hate my mother. I know that I shouldn't because she is the only parent that I have but I hold a deep grudge against her. I could actually feel my heart growing hard against her because she was trying to get me to feel guilty. I was suppose to go to the Renaissance Festival with her last year but neither of us could get the day off so we didn't go. She never told me that we should do it this year or told me that I couldn't go with someone else. And now that I have plans to go there she is trying to make me feel guilty about it. Well it's not going to work. She can't do this to me any more. I was so close to telling her that she would never have to worry about me again. That I would find my own way to work and never come over to her house again. This is how much she makes me mad. I don't want to be around her any more. I don't want to be near her any more. I would give up seeing my brothers and my pets just to get away from everything that she puts me through. I hate it!!! I hate every minute of it!!! I want away from it. I want it so much. I got to work yesterday and one of the older woman that I worked with asked me what was wrong and I just started crying. I can't take it any more. I can't do it any more. I just want it to stop. I want to not have to deal with it ever again. I feel as if a weight has been put onto my back and I can't throw it off. That's what I felt as I walked up the stairs. Maybe I am just getting too stressed. I don't know what it is but I hate it.
I still have to get my stuff sent to me from Florida. I think that I have to wire money to them. I was told what I have to do. I juist have to do it now. I have to do it soon though because they all leave Florida in 1 month and 12 days.
I need school to stop playing games with me. This is why I hate school. They need to stop being fucking asses and help me with this shit. This is why I am trying to transfer. I need to hear from SU soon though. I am going to school next semester whether they want me to or not.
Everything is getting to me and overwhelming me. I'm worrying about all the aforementioned things and more. I have my doctors appointment for my migraines in 5 days. Everything is driving me crazy. No wonder that I am having severe migraines.
Hopefully I will be getting paid with a check this week. Actually two checks. Then I can pay off some more things. I was told that I should be getting both of them this week. Tomorrow actually.
I need new reading material. All I have left are my books by Tolkien and I know that they aren't going to last me long with the speed that I am reading them at. Don't get me wrong, I love these books. I'm just reading them extremely fast.
I'm being harassed by a fly. It follows me everywhere and keeps attacking me. I have tried to kill it on numerous occasions but I can never seem to get the job done. Maybe it's my dad. Like the white butterflys being my grandma. Yeah, I'm weird like that. Leave me alone.
I live with a sucidal dog. He keeps trying to walk in the road but only when cars are coming. Either he's sucidal or he's stupid. I don't know which one it is but it is one or the other.
This post was longer than expected. Wow! I'm so not putting this under a cut. So :-P to you all.
You know that I love you guys. But I say that to you all just to remind you that I care. :-)
~ Jess