it would be so nice.
i desperately want to be in another country right now. i feel restless and i cant focus on the very easy assignment i have to do.
i want to see something new and i want to be around different people. i feel like so many people are the same around here. nothing here is fufilling for me and i find myself doing things to try and fill a void that im just making greater. simply im just in a rut.
if anything why cant my mom just come get me and at least take me to arabian breeze?! that would be very nice. i asked her and she said that im not allowing myself to settle in. well, i dont think i want to feel comfortable around these people because i dont want to be like a lot of them. at all.
but a funny thing, i got a years supply of birth control from the health center. i just wanted my perscription filled and instead i got a years supply...for free! it just seemed odd to walk out of the clinic with so much stuff. so its cool, no more paying for that! yippie!
...otherwise this weekend is going to be boring because i decided i dont want to drink anymore for awhile. & to be social on the weekend one must drink, so im thinking...
1. starting a sober sisters knitting club [joking]
2. sitting in my room alone and watching movie.
3. go to sleep early
4. possibly finding someone who will be super cool and not drink too.
because hanging out with drunk people wouldn't be to much fun i think.
i don't know. we'll see.
but operation make alana happy & healthy is well into effect.
[i have worked out three days in a row! had my first meditation class today! etc]
i want to see something new and i want to be around different people. i feel like so many people are the same around here. nothing here is fufilling for me and i find myself doing things to try and fill a void that im just making greater. simply im just in a rut.
if anything why cant my mom just come get me and at least take me to arabian breeze?! that would be very nice. i asked her and she said that im not allowing myself to settle in. well, i dont think i want to feel comfortable around these people because i dont want to be like a lot of them. at all.
but a funny thing, i got a years supply of birth control from the health center. i just wanted my perscription filled and instead i got a years supply...for free! it just seemed odd to walk out of the clinic with so much stuff. so its cool, no more paying for that! yippie!
...otherwise this weekend is going to be boring because i decided i dont want to drink anymore for awhile. & to be social on the weekend one must drink, so im thinking...
1. starting a sober sisters knitting club [joking]
2. sitting in my room alone and watching movie.
3. go to sleep early
4. possibly finding someone who will be super cool and not drink too.
because hanging out with drunk people wouldn't be to much fun i think.
i don't know. we'll see.
but operation make alana happy & healthy is well into effect.
[i have worked out three days in a row! had my first meditation class today! etc]