observations of the day i want to remember.
1. today in one of my classes we watched this film about the ikung people in botswana, and it really brought me back to south africa. granted, this was about botswana, but the language was basically the same along with the scenery. i really think i want to live in south africa and learn zulu and work among the zulu people. i could do some type of hiv/aids work? that would be so wonderful and fulfilling for me.
2. between one of my classes i sat in the grass by this couple, a reasonable distance away, but i could still hear their entire conversation. so i ate my chicken curry in the sun listening to this couple breaking up and it really just broke my heart. i felt like i shouldn't be listening to the conversation, but i couldnt help it. i just happened to be close enough to hear the whole thing. the girl was crying so hard and he just kept telling her im sorry, i just didnt think we were together anymore. after awhile i thought i was going to start to cry so i put on my music, but as i got up to walk to class i couldnt help but notice how they were standing. she had her body totally turned open towards him with her head lowered wiping her tears away while he stood facing her directly with his arms crossed, it basically described the entire conversation. i just wanted to hug her, she was so devasted.
3. in discussion about karma in my buddhism through art class someone actually said to the professor, "have you ever seen the show my name is earl?" "no. what kind of show is that?" "well it's about this man named earl and he has this list and he tries to go back and say sorry for all the bad things he's done. it's totally all about karma. we should watch it in here, it would be really educational!" ...
...yeah.
sometimes my feelings feel like they run so deep inside of me, that i might crack open. they're so strong. it's like a necessity that i cant bear anymore. i want him around so much. i want his arms around me. i just cant even describe these feelings inside me about this. it's amazing & confusing. it makes me so happy, but i always feel like im on the verge of tears because i miss him so much. all the time.
2. between one of my classes i sat in the grass by this couple, a reasonable distance away, but i could still hear their entire conversation. so i ate my chicken curry in the sun listening to this couple breaking up and it really just broke my heart. i felt like i shouldn't be listening to the conversation, but i couldnt help it. i just happened to be close enough to hear the whole thing. the girl was crying so hard and he just kept telling her im sorry, i just didnt think we were together anymore. after awhile i thought i was going to start to cry so i put on my music, but as i got up to walk to class i couldnt help but notice how they were standing. she had her body totally turned open towards him with her head lowered wiping her tears away while he stood facing her directly with his arms crossed, it basically described the entire conversation. i just wanted to hug her, she was so devasted.
3. in discussion about karma in my buddhism through art class someone actually said to the professor, "have you ever seen the show my name is earl?" "no. what kind of show is that?" "well it's about this man named earl and he has this list and he tries to go back and say sorry for all the bad things he's done. it's totally all about karma. we should watch it in here, it would be really educational!" ...
...yeah.
sometimes my feelings feel like they run so deep inside of me, that i might crack open. they're so strong. it's like a necessity that i cant bear anymore. i want him around so much. i want his arms around me. i just cant even describe these feelings inside me about this. it's amazing & confusing. it makes me so happy, but i always feel like im on the verge of tears because i miss him so much. all the time.