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I'm okay right now. I'm doing really well in school, and I've managed to somewhat (for the time being) handle the problem with Brandon and the phone company, so we can talk, for now. But I can't help feeling like this is all going to be taken away from me. I feel like something really awful is going to happen. My dad is going to die, or Brandon and I won't be able to talk anymore, or I'm going to go into another depressive episode and be so unable to function that I'll have to drop out of school, or I'll start failing (because I feel like my mark thus far has all been a fluke), or the rats are going to die, or.. just something. Something. I guess I'll discuss this with my psychologist on the 14th, but I just.. I don't know. I feel like this brief respite from chaos is going to be torn away from me.