Ever feel relieved that you have an excuse to avoid getting obsessed about something?  The month of May does everything it can to entice you into some form of excitement but this year in particular giving in to the urges just seems more immoral than usual.  If you don't have a problem, I don't have a problem with that.  Good for you.  But me?   ( Read more... )

One frequent theme to my dreams has been, and continues to be "things aren't where they're supposed to be".

As if I didn't know that.

As if I didn't know that I'm not where I'm supposed to be.

As if I can do anything about the problems.

My subconscious mind is complaining that it can't find a pair of trousers and I can't find a life.  Bah.

There is something happening, but I wish I didn't know what it was.

Sagittarius Horoscope for week of April 23, 2015
As I climb the first hill along my regular hike, both sides of the path are dominated by a plant with glossy, three-lobed leaves. They're so exuberant and cheerful, I'm tempted to caress them, even rub my face in their bright greenery. But I refrain, because they are poison oak. One touch would cause ( Read more... )

As said, I'm in the process of a switchover from one form of Internet connectivity to another, and that means a lot of bureaucratic finagling with our service provider...plus some financial outlays.

Got my first bill from the new service today.  Tomorrow I'll have to go to the office to link the accounts.  The amount of the bill is over $200 but ( Read more... )

Sagittarius Horoscope for week of November 1, 2012Zombies used to be terrifying. But then they became a featured motif in pop culture, often in humorous contexts, and now there's a growing acceptance and even affection for them. Here's the view of Max Brooks, author of The Zombie Survival Guide: "Eventually rock and roll morphs from Sid Vicious to ( Read more... )

I know I've been much quieter than normal lately. I guess I'm under a more covert, sublime form of depression as opposed to the usual demoralization. At this point, I'm of a mind that just letting it run its course, and not fighting it with self-medication, is the best of my few and far-between options ( Read more... )

A long time ago, in this journal, I related that I had a dream that I got to see a little of an alternative version of myself...another life being lived. That version of me had a different birthday, a different history, and many things I don't ( Read more... )

Or put another way, do I have any right to be depressed that I don't seem particularly depressed? Of course, I'm not happy, but I feel bizarrely calm and level and grounded. Given my history, I'm wondering if I should be worried. Have I done too much of a job internalizing and intellectualizing my emotions?

Today my sister and Mom & Dad's pastor met to settle the date and time for Mom's celebration of life service. It will be May 12th at the church ( Read more... )